Me again

But I admit this one is shorter but more difficult

Anyway I hope it has some sense
So much that I have need of you
I believe it is obvious
and if I hurt I don't care
I am to blame for the both
I am to blame that I have learned you(got to know you)
(you) only to leave an ash
even not to 'calculate' me
I am to blame and only for that
that without to get angry
I give free of charge
So much I have worshiped you
it has said each kiss
and if the heart destroy me
it is my own choice