Take down the wall before my eyes

[psychotica]

Well I write a lot of lyrics so to not overflow you all with a lot of topics
I thought it might be the best choice to combine them all in one topic
Here are a few of my latest works:

Run for time

I am like a child
Hiding in the darkest corner
Folded up and
Trembling
Scared from the light

I am like a lie
Waiting to be discovered
To be saved from
The truth
You can not deny

Can you see the grand design of flaws
Inside the waking hours of my heart
Am I not all that tears you apart

1000 mistakes
Kept in a secret chamber
And you find them
So you
Are the one to fake it

But I am still looking at the door
To see it rain down on my floor

I am like a flower in the cold winter night
Will never open my leaves for some to see
The rhymes and the pain that I once drew
As it kept me away from my dying mind

And on my soul
There is a lock
You have the key
You have the key to open me

Cause I am a bird
So ready to fly in your arms
For the clock strikes the third blow

[psychotica]

Other World Woman

Break my hopes
And my memories
A frantic illusion
I stray from the light
Deeper into my emotion

I am too far to lie of safety
Too fragile to call you my own

Call me unworthy
It sounds right somehow
Words I swallow
And replace
I don't need a hand, please go

Maybe I am strong
But can't I be small
Just for a single day
Please lie to me
And lure me away (from this)

Remember my eyes before I bleed
They once told you what I needed
(So cold, So cold they feel to me)

I want to cry
I need those scars
Don't say goodbye
Before I break myself

Shattered remains
Of my own life
Pressed into my feet
Still walking the path alone
Not knowing where it will lead

Not knowing where to go before I burn up...

[psychotica]

Not more then a feeling

Don’t you think that I am afraid
Or hide myself away so easily
Yours is not the only masquerade
I am everyone besides me

And I crawl
I crawl on my knees
For some devotion
A silent yearning
A need to please

Hold me
Tell me of the skies
And the distant future
I will believe
All of these lies

But it’s not more then a feeling
Nothing more then a feeling
And I can’t wake up

I want the smile painted on your face
I need to taste every single drop of rain
Without you seeing the love in my eyes
A longing to linger within this overwhelming…
Pain

On this road
Of my own lost soul
I can see it all
Breaking my heart
And taking me whole

But I can’t be ashamed of myself
It’s nothing more then a feeling
Inside this dream I can forget reality

And I suffocate inside unanswered love
Although it’s not more then a feeling
In my mind there is a world of possibilities

I want your voice repeating in my head
I need to touch the scars on your weakened skin
I could get lost in the secrecy of my words
The nothingness of this feeling is still a deep love…
Within

[psychotica]

Dark clouds

Self-sacrifice
In the lost hours
Of an once dying night
But today I did not break
I just cried

And I am back in the hour glass
Feeling time, slipping through my hands

So I see myself
Without a breath
Without my name to hold
Inside these silent walls
I turned cold

Unable to loose
I am holding on beneath
this suffocating shroud
Frozen down
on these dark clouds

Can you see me standing here
Before the clock strucks twelve
But you run away within your fear
Your fear for all that I represent

I'm deprived of reasons why
Left alone in the dead of night
Would it feel much better if I died?

[psychotica]

Declaration of dependence (That I am sick ptV)

Deprived of air
Falling fast
And I am unaware
The truth is
I am really scared
To speak out
When no one is there

But is this line within my grasp
There lies the fire of my reality
Burning the fear to become my anger

Then I bleed
Upon your eyes
What you have done
You will see
Before I am gone

I kill wishes
For your sanity
Gravity takes you out
Take the words
And stitch your mouth

Broken, crawling, despair
Naked and I am falling
No one there to catch me
Bleeding freely on the ground

I will kill you
Before I ever die
I am dangerous
Without the reasons
You deny

Cut me open and see what I’ve become
All those bruises have been there too long

It was your decision
Before I took mine
But it was a desperate lie
And now I decline
I ripped out my brakes
So you crossed the line

Your only way out buried under the dirt

Three steps back into the past
It will never rest on your eyelids
But perfectly fits inside my mind
As I am left behind your broken body

[psychotica]

Broken childhood

Eyes that are lying
Their way into a fake smile
Telling the secrets
As they linger for a while

You are
Not a memory
You were the one
Destroying
This dream of me

So I have
No secret place
To hide myself away
To escape
Your sickening face

I only needed a arm to hold me tight
Not the past I so desperately want to deny
I ran away from you but I failed myself
But I am still running, I still try

On this hill
I taste the rain
Melting my tears and
My thoughts
Of being too sane

I can’t escape what hides in my head
So I watch the crumbling of the tombstones
Before I am dead

[psychotica]

Time

Shattered visions in my mind
Hidden behind my eyelids
Thousand steps ahead in time
And no one catches up with me

How long
Will I wait for you
To see me as me
Untamed and wild
Inside my fantasies

So feel
Take a deep breath
Of clear ocean air
Search the stars and
The moon, I’m there

But this was not more then a dream
I released my skin
Still you never looked in

I want this
For I start to forget
How to be loved
Just one moment
Forever’s enough

I don’t need to be saved
I don’t need to be released
From my scars and this torment
Swallow your regrets
And I will give you all my time
I need to breath until the end
Now I will take you down with my tears
‘Cause I will give up eventually, my dear

A paradox of paralyzing fears
And the will to grow beyond my vision
A climax of unwanted feelings
I used to be the girl with a simple mission

To wander alone, so quietly
Between the borders of the unseen
Chasing the butterflies of lies
You took me out the rain, how keen

Where am I so afraid of

I watched
This life pass me
Without any goodbyes
Waiting for the next one
To arrive, time flies

Could I learn to trust you
Then my world will crumble
Before their cold, cold eyes
‘Cause I stumbled once
And thought no one should care
Like me, you are a wall too
Now I doubt if I ever dare

Legendary
Failure
Secret gardens
Inside me
Shapeless
And I hit the ground….

How long
Will our time last
Did you look up
Kissed all the clouds
Asked them to stop

I ripped the wings out of my angelic eyes
Waiting for my life too happen, time flies

[psychotica]

Alone I sleep

I close my eyes……

There’s a breath upon the air
A soft whisper only I can hear
“Can you feel me closing in…”
As I find there is no one there

I am alone when I enter the silence
I am alone, am I …
A careless question that lost no meaning in time

Am I lost inside my fantasy
Laying here in the cold night
“Can you hear me calling”
And I embrace the memory

I am alone when I enter the dream
I am alone, am I
A hopeful moment as I look deep into your eyes

The rain falling down on me
Wandering the garden of Eden
There’s a sin deep inside us all
Yet you are all that I can see

A fire burns
Intoxicating moments
Do you remember
A tortured happiness……
I chase the language in which you speak
You bring me a scent I can not resist
I believe in this
I chase the skies that once seemed bleak

Reality still haunts my mind
I wish I had more words left
To share with you this night
It’s my hope I can’t leave behind

I am alone again when I open my eyes
I am alone, am I
But still there is a faith in me that will never die

[psychotica]

The lullaby of sssshhhh

(whisper : )
Innocence will never be forgotten….
I wish you never sung me that lullaby
Before you made my heavens bleed
Now I am falling and I am falling fast
Secrets in my mind, a little bit rotten
I can never be alone, leave them behind

(sing/grunt/scream : )
Try to break these perfect lies
I crawl back into those memories of you
I twist… I turn… but I won’t cry
Rather be strong and let the pressure rise

I want to suffocate the lines of this deceit
Find you standing still in once made tracks
Can’t you rewrite the past, one last deed

Too many thoughts that need to sleep
There’s still blood on my clutching hands
From digging in the dirt far too deep

But all I want is your suffering
The broken tombstones inside a life
Covering the child that was me
And now I see the past unraveling

(speak : )
As the angels dance
With the broken wings
Of an endless flight
I just want to break free
Of where I used to hide

I want it all to fade
Like tears on my cheek
Like every single scar
You once gave to me
It’s vengeance that I seek

(sing / scream / grunt : )
Break the chains of this reality
You took your time to watch me bleed
But my hatred still runs deep
Your dying eyes will end seeing me

Cause you destroyed my personal heaven
With the words of the lullaby you sang
Did you truly believe you were forgiven

I am longing for this moment
There is so much you didn’t realize
You wasted all of your prayers
The curtains drawn before the end

(whisper : )
Are you afraid? Lost of all the hope inside?
I wait for your demise so I can be free
You are the chains on my masquerade
And only the silence feel my secret tears
I rather fall…. I rather fail myself and try
To live my life, you will never own my mind……

[psychotica]

Hide

She sits in her windowpane
Watching the world escape
Alone outside this reality
Silently wishing for the rain

A prison for her little heart
She dances on her own breath
Footsteps of blood on stone
As this prison tears her apart

And no one hears her sing
No one sees her tears
When the day is sleeping

Do you hide when the moon screams
That he is entering the room once more
Do you crawl when his presence deceives
Like the innocence you had before
Do you fight for all your stolen dreams
And waste your prayers on your savior

I see you fading into the walls
Just waiting for any sun to rise
An ordinary light so mislaid
By the memories you will recall

And no one hears her fail
No one sees her burden
As she finally falls again

Do you hide when the moon screams
That he is entering the room once more
Do you crawl when his presence deceives
Like the innocence you had before
Do you fight for all your stolen dreams
And waste your prayers on your savior

Try to comprehend
That his burden will fail you
And the pressure in his demand
Will leave you scattered, forlorn
Its nothing but a mere perception…
Nothing but a mere illusion…
Cascading with the skies

So could you hide when the moon dances
On the rotten ground of this prison
Could you fly when the world is singing
A denying tune to a moan-filled song
Could you fight for the undying light
As your dreams will never be gone
Your fantasy, the escape from this fall
So could you dream at all?

[psychotica]

Wings of the moment

Would you mind if I spread my wings
Into the universe I want to offer you
Would you decline a world we can share
This view diver beyond visual perception

Could I share my moonlight with you
Because I can’t hide that I’m dancing
As my tears create a sudden rhythm
My smile paves the way into the dawning
(Of our time)

You stood in the doorway
Outside my soul
Hesitating to enter

I dare you
To believe in my imagination
Because I
Yes I can make you dream
Here I stand
In the presence of your energy
Tensions rise
And creates this serene reflection

As the first steps are so crucial in this dance
Just a simple gesture to make you cross the line
There’s a reason behind the motions I make
I don’t hide, let me share this world with you

So I smile
For you to comprehend
What I mean
With the words I said
In your eyes
Lies your every story
Hear me now
I will understand….

I smell your presence
When you’re near
More then an infatuation
I seek your love
Bound to persistence
Or my heartfelt patience


Don’t resist
And smile your fears away
This is real
Simultaneously breathing
I feel you
So can you see me here
As this words
Cross my lips…… please stay

[Devin K]

Holy !! You got me! The lyrics are GREAT. Too me any ways, i liked "Hide" very much. Keep up the good work...!

[psychotica]

Thank you!!!
Today I finally finished a new lyric for the That I am sick - serie :

The silent screams (That I am sick ptVIII)

I can feel it coming again…………

Scratching my skin
With both hands tied
It rises up inside of me
I can see you with eyes closed
Feel how you lied

I attempt to crawl
I’m trying so hard to flee
What have I become
No I will not ever be your angel
Isn’t that a tragedy

Too many hands touching my mind
And I think I finally turned paranoid
Why aren’t you here to save………
Why oh why did you leave me behind
Where my silent screams fall down
Daddy why won’t you save me now

I thought I couldn’t find a way out
But suddenly I am off my knees
If you look into my eyes what do you see

What did I expect
You’re just a little ****
Unable to love but yourself
Fed up with your denial
And …… it’s pathetic

‘Cause in my head you’re still trying to steal my innocence

I want to bring you down, make you scream, daddy
Why won’t you die, just die, die die die die die
Why won’t you ****ing ………… sssjt (for me)

It’s the least you can do, for every lie you told
For every time you try to sell my soul
But you failed, oh god yes you have failed
I know the sickness inside your head
And I know the secrets underneath your bed
Oh daddy, I am angry, I am sad, I am tired
Of your attitude, cause I am free now
What does that say about you
I freed myself from your slander
Yes daddy you’re just a fool

My silent screams
Are deafening your ears
I will never need you in my life
So you can open your eyes
You can disappear

I praise your fall
As all I want from you is to leave me alone
Won’t hide my smile when you are gone

Why won’t you ****ing………… ssssjjjjt

[SpudMunky]

Hi there! Your lyrics are very good, however I feel that sometimes it's like you're repeating yourself in a different soneg, alot of them appear to have a similar theme! But despite all of that you have good ideas and good lyrics!

[psychotica]

yes some of them are actually series, as it is sometimes visible as well.
And sometimes you encounter the same sort of inspiration as well,
thank you for the compliment... and I shall give you a new lyric

Desensify

I kiss your lips to fill you with my lies
How long I lived on the breath of your smile
But the tide changed as did my mind
I walk away, and you don’t understand why

I tried to draw the lines of my reality
The darkness in which I lived for far too long
Tied the paper with ribbons just for you
Yet I drown the words so you can’t save me

Now I stand here on the edge
Avoiding the whispers inside my head
(I kneel on the floor with my hands on my ears……)

I couldn’t escape me being alone

The questions rise
As the sun is falling
Will the law of gravity take me down tonight
“Spread your wings and aim for the sky
Just close your eyes and pretend to fly”
A desperate choice I needed to make on my own

Holding on to hope ‘til my knuckles turned white
Still so afraid to release all that used to represent me
One step closer and I wont be able to turn back
My will to live turned to reasons to let all of it die
(let it die………)

So I scream to god for the answers he doesn’t have
And I cry those tears that no one will catch
(closer to the edge, what will become of me next)

Time to take control
Break the illusions inside
I was a failure, could I ever become more
I listen to the silence but It’s too loud
“Leave the secrets contaminating your view
We all fall down sometimes and so will you”
Would you miss me before I hit the ground

Just let me feel once
For my last resistance fades
Let me bear my reflection
As my world filled with shades
Turns to grey

A last crucial doubt for I seek the serenity
Could I dare to die, is it my time to say farewell
My eyes glancing to the first rays of dawn
When I turn and leave these last shards of me

[SpudMunky]

Ah that makes sense as to why some of them seem to have similar themes if they are a continuation! Very clever! Those lyrics that you have just added as well are very good, those lyrics are very meaningful! They're quite heavy as well!

[psychotica]

Locked up in your emotions

A call in the distance
Like a voice yet so unclear
This unfixed emotion
Tears on my cheek
But it aren't my cries I hear

You came in like a story that needed to be told
I seek your eyes
For the questions I now hold

You are so torn inside
Oh and how can I hold this lie
Want to touch your skin
Tell you how I feel
All those words you can't deny

I swallow my thoughts
Take it down for another ride
And sometimes I'm tired
Underneath my skin
I'm battling someone else's fight

Am I strong enough to carry the world on my shoulders

I am the mirror that holds your reflection
Tell me, How can you say that I won't comprehend
Bare feet I walk through the shattered moments
You couldn't escape behind your masquerade
When I am holding your whispers inside my hands
Until the awakening of a new century

And I really did try
To Bear your bravest smile
Avoid your desolation
Fake my laughter
Just to hold your hand for a while

But if I ask you who I am, you will fail to see
The embodiment of you, carefully locked up in me

Drowning in emotions I can't recognise anymore
You remain blind as I struggle to reach the surface
Yet I can't blame you, I can't hate you for it
Because you don't know how mixed up I feel
I can't condemn you to the world, you won't fit
Sometimes it's not more then an illusion

And I sat myself down, humbly on the floor
Just silence between us because I can't change you
At least not today, yes it is not the day
for the tale of a stranger behind this closed door

[psychotica]

The sweet persistance

Your momentary restlessness
divides you on different levels
You pretend to close your eyes
I thought you'd be willing to confess

There's a lie inside your wisdom
You defend with sheer determination
Why do you persist on fading it out
You can not hide for what is yet to come

But every word I told you, you cast aside
Whats the point if you cant face yourself?

You ran away
Without ever looking back
And here I am now
Standing in
Your faded tracks

You seek the answers only you hold
Just a faint of fear leads you astray
Try to deny, set yourself for failure
Because your faked persistance has grown old

And as your eyes gaze deep into mine
I start to wonder
Will you ever stop to decline (my presence)

I'm still here
Will you ever understand
the sweet reality
You already
Hold in your hands

(So there you are, awaiting the moment someone would save you)

But you have to face it, There is no denying
Can't you see you are creating your own scars
The reflection in the mirror still unstained
One day it will defy all that you believe in
So force yourself to take a stand, This moment
All you need to embrace to rise from the floor

In my hands
I hold my point of view
Unfolded illusions
Tell me
Did I trust too soon

[psychotica]

Stained perfection

(I can see it written on your face.......)

So many meanings
To the words you left unsaid
You lingered too long in lies
You not yet cast aside
As your disbelief gets fed

Release the scars
Before this tragedy unfolds
But you stained your own eyes
Pretend you don't see
Your soul can not be sold

And emotions are no shame
Beauty will never be the blame

There's a touch inside a poet's heart
Every image left there too recognise
But the signs are never easy to read
When thoughts of failing tears you apart

Defy those moments
Shed the tears in your smile
If they are shattering you now
Share your sacred world
Make all of this worthwhile

Just bear this sight
And the pain might feel umendable
Witness emotions that you once denied

But you desperatly want to take control
When all you needed was just some time
I can't save you from these illusions
If you are willing to been swallowed whole

You can try to convince yourself that the sun did not come up today
There is no easy way to walk without standing on your own two feet
You still try to say to yourself that hope is not more then fragile
Scatter those little secret illusions I can not believe in any longer
So don't try to set a mark on me with your words filled with denial
Tell me now what is your truth, just tell me now what it is you need

Tell me to seek out
the shackles you have put on
Release yourself of the chains
And I will listen to you
To every word in your song