then thinking theres nothing left i hold my breath till i turn blue
i find myself guessing what wasnt and was true
on the outside i lie and say i don't care cause i'm through
/i miss you i'm falling apart your voice saying what you don't mean hate bleeding hurtful words your saying degrating games that your playing then when the hitting and screaming is through i got nothing better to do then sit around and wonder why i love you/
most day's spent acting like you ment it when you said together forever
sometimes i say i hate that we were ever
i close my eyes then open them hoping its you i see
i lie and say i'm happy i'm free
i still keep the pictures of you and me on the wall
though sometimes it crosses my mind to take them down and burn them all
/i miss you i'm falling apart your voice saying what you don't mean hate bleeding hurtful words your saying degrating games that your playing then when the hitting and screaming is through i got nothing better to do then sit around and wonder why i love you/
most days i just sit by the phone hoping you'll call
sometimes i scream i don't love you at all
most days i try not to think about you
i even sometimes lie and pretend i'm better off without you