Opinions and Feedback please/Ty

I had a dream the other night, that you were still alive/
Brought up all these mixed feelings that i could neva describe/
I be leaved the dream, woke up.. Felt like it lied/
Ignored you too long really wish heard your side/

bumped into you at school, you said it wasnt true/
I stand there starin atchu. confused wit out a clue/
brought you to a comp to show you how i knew/
Then i woke up, but dont know what to do, i miss you/

I'm jus so pissed, it took your death to realize/
that i was so wrong and need to apologize/

I apologize for everytime i made fun of you/
you never changed for anyone, that takes alota guts to do/

Sitin here looking at your pic, heart broken/
eyes swollen, jus found out, wish you would have spoken/
its not your fault either, i know you werent that open/
jus dont understand why you were chosen/



Butchu were and i can;t change that now/
Forgotten you'll never be, bro i vow/
Always in my heart, to leave i wont allow/
Never thought i couldnt say sorry wow


I'm sorry it took so long just for me to speak/
When im disrespected though i jus seem to freak/
Its no excuse i know. It should have ended in a week/
Now your acceptance is all that i seek/

But i'm neva guna get it/
always will regret it/
go is what i'll neva let it/
I'm Sorry Chris.. I Wish i would have said it/

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But now its's too late, is this fate?/
I'm still here as your goin through the gate/
July 17th i DREAD that date/
SO many others, with me they relate!/

Can't understand why i could never say goodbye/
all i can do is try to accept it but i cant, why?/
burstin into tears and just start to cry/
you always a close friend anyting else would be a lie/