3 colors

One thing I wanted to say,*
Before you came n faded away, was:
*"in this bed I lay, my heart is where you stay."

I didnt know you well,*
And I didn't know you long.
I'd always say that you were gonna be like me,
But excuse me if I'm wrong.

These 3 colors that I know,
They'd always be those 3 in rows.
The shooting stars didn't seem glow, that day.
And I'm sorry you had to go so early.
Guess god was in a big hurry,
Now I'll never see you..
Tonight..

I'd like, to see,
How you came out to be.
N know the face,
that was never erased,
from the empty memories.

Was all this time just a tease?

I would want to know.*
How*you would Pronounce "Hello"
But unfortunately your not here with me...
oooohhh..

These 3 colors that I know,
They'd always be those 3 in rows.
The shooting stars didn't seem glow, that day.
And I'm sorry you had to go so early.
Guess god was in a big hurry,
Now I'll never see you..
Tonight..


All this time I waited,*
To just feel that your presence faded.

Such little time, was on my mind
To hug you, to kiss you, was between a line.

To hold you, to love you- to know You were there..
N Now that your gone and I'm full a despair,

There's nothing I can do to bring you back here.
N whenever I dream of you,
I'd leak a tear.


Well these 3 colors aren't to blame,*
Though whenever I think of them it rains.
I can't stand the feeling at all,
And I'm sorry you had to go so early
I guess god was in a big hurry.
Now I'll never see you, at all..
Tonight..


Edited it x')
I love you very much Avery and just know that I believe you would of been the best baby brother ever :]

I wonder what the colors are.

*Sighs...* RIP luke..

Here.. Figure this out

Three certain colors.
shooting stars? Well they represent the 3 colors.
They'll only glow on a CERTAIN DAY.
That mentions 3 colors.
Things that RELATE to shooting stars..

Do you get it?

Hmmm...I'ma go with Red Blue Green?

*stares at yew..*
red white and blue..

I was gonna guess that!

Lol.. Yeah..
Mum had a miscarriage, with my baby brother Avery Luke..
Since I'm the eldest well.. Everyone expected me to be the strongest..
But when everyone left the house I screamed n cried n hit things, cursing every word that came through my head...

But every night I think of playing with my baby brother, holding him, hugging and kissing him..
And just the other day, I was sitting down, playing bioshock 2.. By myself.. In the dark, and just for a brief moment I heard a baby giggle by my side.

It giggled and made a baby noise, as if it.. Enjoyed being with me..
But when I looked to my side.. There was no baby.. Just my toy dog.. sparky..
Then that night I had this dream, about a baby..
Brownish black hair, like mine.. Big brown eyes, so brown that they were black (like mine..) he had his hand in his mouth and laugh and laughed he had just a diaper on, and he was cute and chunky I wanted to hug him..

But when I reached out for him, I woke up.. :|

The day he died was on the 4th of July.. My favorite holiday... Shooting stars, that's what I used to call the fireworks when I was a kid.
Whenever my 5 year old brother, Bobo sees a baby.. He stares at it..

And then he asks me, " how come Avery isn't with us?"
"it's not fair we don't have a baby.."
"I bet that baby was supposed to look like Avery.."
"i love Avery, Olivia.. I miss him.."

And I just stare at him..
4th of July won't ever feel the same again..
And my favorite color.. Is orange..
Averys birthstone was supposed to be orange..

:|
*looks at the ground*..

Deep. I'm sorry. I can relate though, kinda. My sister was supposed to be a twin, but her twin died at birth. I never knew the twin, nor does it have a name. Just a grave marked "Baby Inskeep"

That's okay, sorry for ur loss as well..
My mom is very sick, she can't do much. I take care of my bro n sis daily, I clean the house for her.. I even missed I whole damn year of school cuz I was afraid if I left, then she'd die.

N when she said she was pregnant well, I automatically thought of teaching it how to play halo and COD -.-" (cuz that's what I used to do when I was a baby).
I thought a baby would bring a smile on my face everyday, and it did.. Cuz I raised two, I don't think I'm gonna celebrate the 4th of July this year..


But I'm gonna miss Luke xP if I don't keep the smile off my face then I might as well become emo again but I have a dream I have to carry on and I won't stop till I get what I want.
Luffs yew Avery Luke xD

-Olivia- Shadow xD

I just edited it that's all :]