Cuz of five simple letters I can't sleep,
Everytime I try, I wake up and see you weep ,
I sit back and wish I could take my voice out,
so I couldn't yell your name loud.

Sorrow gets through my shield, it touches my eyes,
Old memories are brought back to grow in size,
Reading my emotions now is an easy task,
Right ? But do you even care ? you don't even ask ...
Years will pass, and I'll still be wearing this mask ...

Look,
I am fourty-six -
Exactly the same man, seeking for tits.
Walking like a loser,
And hey ! i'am still not even tabaco user !
Everyday I pop pills,
Still on my dream to live in beverly hills !

...my head is about to explode,
Don't get near me , or else you'll get blowed .
I can't stand the pain ! But who took my berries ? !
And don't tell me it was those imaginable ferries !
Blue cherry is for my head,
Red one will make me died .
These choises aren't hard....
.... when you count yourself as retard.

Here I'am died , lying in my grave,
Next to it stand you, and wave !
- Hey, babe !
I was about to look at you,
To realize all the bullshit I went through,
When ****ing worm ate my eye-ball,
But that's OK, I have 3 more !

Looking at you makes me feel a litle clumsy,
And that's not because I suck as M. C , you see :
When I was alive , with you, my legs felt wooden,
Now when I am died, they have just rotten .

Anyway out of ideas for final part, could use some if this is any good at all.
Thanks.