see what you think havent posted in a while but would love some feedback on this - be warned its not a nice read - but thats how i write - as raw as i can

when the tears in your eyes fill up until you cry
that feeling you wanna die its called your demise
you despise it too but embrace the warm fluids
as your face turns red you feel hopless and dead
with your arms wide spread unable to scream
like a dream this situations unbelievable
a lesson too late to learn its inconceiveable
yet you still breath but why you keep sighing
when everyone knows that your lifes a lie
depression aint the word theres no other expression
not to mention the mistakes and the countless wrong choices
the tension breaks and everythings a dead voice
in the of midst of despair you still cuddle the hurt
no one else cares as you muddle through a purpose
it hurts you love it as you keep crying buckets
take your love and your friendship you dont want it so **** it
tell yourself you dont need em so lets stop the greaving
your a joke and a waste so plan to be leaving
knowing really that no one ever believed in you
lets see that you hang little girl its ya plan
damn... and they wont find ya for months...
with a little note scribed "**** you you cunts"
and theyll find those bruises those marks and scars
whilst you gaze from the stars in a place so far
you keep watching as the whole story unfolds
if theres one thing you hold then its still those woes
you cant let em go as you see your funeral
mom and daddy there too and now stupid you
wishes you lived after seeing this sorrow
if youd gived it another day atleast till tommorow
and even worse secretley the truth stays hidden
he's smiling in the kitchen the sick ****er lives
and you give it all your energy as you fall to earth
and all that hurts is about to come crashing
the truth about his passion and why didnt they ask him?!
as you smashed your dreams and your soul it screams
youll haunt that ****er until the day that he dies
cuz maybe a ghost with its echoing cries
will make him realise thats its sick on what he trieves
but the unfortunate truth be that its him who survived...