Not Me

This is a strange little thing. I went to sleep for a few minutes and when I woke up I just wrote this. Again, it's very poemy with no clear structure. I'm open to suggestions about the name:

Not Me - Copyright © RobberBaron Enterprises 2011

I'm so tired of being treated like I'm stupid,
And acting up to make the right people like me,
I won't waste my breath with explanations,
You'll never get it

I wish things weren't so complicated,
I wish you could just know who I am,
But there are no words to describe,
The truth I feel

When I look at you,
You seem so shallow,
All the things you say,
Like a broken arrow

They stab me in the back,
And the poison flows in,
But nobody else,
Seems to care

So I may be in a world of my own,
But I don't understand what's normal,
Your expectations slowly kill me,
You expect what I could never be

There's a hole inside my heart,
There's a knife inside my mind,
And every time you speak,
It digs closer in

Not even love can save me,
From the loneliness I feel,
I want to be lonely but I really don't,
I feed off your sympathy

So instead I open my eyes,
Pretend that I'm okay,
Make jokes and laugh and cry inside,
I go back to being not me