to help, to save a life
to strive, but not with strife
to be normal, my ailments aleave me
to be a saviour, protect them from me
the pain, unbearable.
the shame, un-escape-able
a deep hatred, of thy-self
a deep want, to change my-self
to try, but get shot down
to care, but look like a clown
to protect, others of thee
to endure, loneliness and free.