A distorted image of myself stares back at me
now i finally conceive what everyone else see's
a person that once had a lot to offer everyone
a person that is asking himself what have i done
i used to have it all the real american dream
now it's almost to far along to love and redeem
suppressed with the image of what could have been
depressed about failing myself time and time again
spiritless, dejected, downhearted bastard i am
these words now describe me with my bottle in hand
The only thing left in me that keeps me going on.
Is the thought of hope, my god I must be such a moron.
To think that there's still hope for me is just absurd.
No to me hope, hope is just a made up fairy tail word.
The real sanguinity here is to just fall asleep and never awake
I cant believe I am asking god to take me, never mind my fate

Alcohol my friend tonight it's you and I
let's go to that place in my mind and cry
cry about the current situation I'm in
cry about the way it all should have been
The point of no return is in sight
the point where i give up the fight

As darkness sets in my vision begins to blur
Drinking and smoking my thoughts have no cure
Endless nights I stay awake thinking irrational
The black under my eyes is in no way fashionable
Insomnia and paranoia makes reality deceiving
Thoughts of suicide is what my mind is receiving
I miss her so badly my god it's so unbearable
To continue on like this makes life terrible
God give her back to me, I can't make it alone
Life is to hard to live with out her at home
Hanging on by threads of religious beliefs
There is no way to ever get over this grief

Alcohol my friend tonight it's you and I
Let's go to that place in mind and cry
cry about the current situation I'm in
cry about the way it all should have been
The point of no return is in sight
The point where i give up the fight

Goodbye

written by Anthony Ray Cox