this is to my sister i love but its hard being the younger sister

I’m sick of making promises I can’t keep
Of trying to cover up all my lies
Why can’t I just be myself all the time?
I am sorry if you don’t approve of me
But shouldn’t you be glad that I’m happy

I hate living this life
Where I can’t talk to you
Can’t trust you to keep my secrets
Can’t look in your eyes
I am afraid of disappointment
I wish you could see how torn up
I am about this
I hate living this life

Your stubborn and I am not
I always cave in
Admit that you are right
Because I don’t want to put up the fight
It’s never worth it
You always win
I always lose
One of the things I hate about you
You can’t accept when I am not below you

I hate living this life
Where I can’t talk to you
Can’t trust you to keep my secrets
Can’t look in your eyes
I am afraid of disappointment
I wish you could see how torn up
I am about this
I hate this life

Why can’t I have my life?
And you have yours
I am sick of living up to your morals
I am sick of being scared
This is a sisterhood
Of friendship not a dictatorship
I shouldn’t have to hide
You should be happy with me
All of me

I hate living this life
Where I can’t talk to you
Can’t trust you to keep my secrets
Can’t look in your eyes
I am afraid of disappointment
I wish you could see how torn up
I am about this
I hate living this life