29 years old trying to stay on a straightened path and embrace the fact that erasing my crAzy past isn't possible like hopping through panes of glass naked and break and smash make it back without a gaping gash or even a ache or scratch/ maniac wasting cash on full prescription pad multiple scripts attached/ **** when it comes to pills I used to mix a batch a little of this and that adderall with xanax/. Got pharmacist knowledge it's back with a monstrous tolerance/ thank god that it's in the past looking back overdosed 3 times a couple of siezures ****ing tardive diskensia/ Dream of benzodiazepines opiates and speed mental insanity I'm told it's a disease/ if it's a disease im a mother****ing petrie dish/ doomed like a leaky ship sinking quick this time it's a deep as ****/. I'm talking bout 6 feet deep when the breathing ends leAve deader that Heath ledger it's over like when the season ends/ toxocology report size of a novel like the king of pop got my doctor on trial by that I'll be in hell I'm rotten and vile craziest athiest **** god and his bible I'm sick!!!
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Sobriety struggle
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Here's my sobriety struggle... THE BATTLE RAP!
Originally Posted by Mgibs1982
Man, why am I even doing this line I know I don't wanna. Sleep a week for the week that I geeked that ain't sleep, ask Reid that's a coma.
Why u bulshittin dog? We both know you're gonna. And when that's gone we both gone to get some more around the corner.
F**k that man, my hearts already about to explode.
Don't be scared ill be right here it won't be the first time we overload. Exceed your limits of self control. Remember that time we got got so throwed u spent all the dough for the bills that u owed?
Ta-huh, which time there's been so many? Don't even mention when to get the rent in I had to borrow from jimmy. No friends to show love, no bread to buy bud, thank god for Benny. Used to let me feel like I'm winning with 2 grams for 20. Roll up 8 pinners who cares if they're skinny. But I didn't pay for this I didn't buy any, dude gave me this said he had plenty. Said it was cool, I think he did. didn't he?
Yeah dog, u can tell that to you're wife. I know like u do what happened last night. Four dudes in one bathroom, it was on like a light. Next destination, score some more white. Who cares if $ at the house is tight, the kids don't get the name brand cereal they like. Pac said,"everything'll be alright."
Nah he didn't that's a lie. The song was "keep ya head up" and I keep mines high. Narrow frame but I carry it wide. Pockets always empty but hearts full of pride.
But you'll be paid the day Dr.Dre sees how u be slayin mics. Even Eminem will b begging u then to help him write. Even dictate while he types, 16,000 bars of your wrongs and rights.
I don't know man sounds like bites or maybe infringement of copyrights.
Just grab the fukn bag! We'll miss our flight, land in your idea of paradise f**k dealing with life. Go ask Ro. Its just filled with struggle and strife.
Yeah, well. None of my struggles involve rocking ice, driving cars that are nice, or b***es all on me like a head full of lice. Besides black and white the only other things that touch my skin are sweat and some ink. Only ice i see starts its life as water from the sink. I can only buy cars that are already pushed past the brink. I wish I could stay smoking dro and keep my house on stink. Keep from acting out hellish thoughts that I think. Dark reveries, memories, pain I can only ease by taking some drinks.
How did this even become a debate? Hurry up dog, get yourself straight. Its destined to happen decided by fate.
Shut the f**k up man! Wait!
Come on dog lets take another shower and mastuerbate, or f**k your lil b***h she loves when your gone. Tearing it up like Chinese pornstar TYME FUK LONG.
F**k u man. Why are u even here that wasn't directed your way?
U sure? Noone else here check the room and say what u say.
I was talking to myself. Who do u think u are buttin in puttin in your two cents?
Maybe I'm the u that u speak to when u look within for guidance for when sin temps again.
F**k u, doesn't matter. I'm the boss I say what goes.
I can tell, it shows. Nice choice on the line, did u murder your nose? Did u bust a nut and curl your toes? Are u gonna do some more as history shows? Then cry and lie bout not knowing where your cash flows?
You say you're me but u sound more like my foes. B***h! Trick! Quick d**k then flip if you're thick but never forget bros b4 hoes. If u were me you'd know I'm a G and this could only lead to us throwing blows.
For real dog! What? Punch yourself in da gut, run around town bragging bout whooping your own butt? U need to chill, kick back in da cut. Make another line and snort that s**t up. Make another drink and tilt back your cup. I've been having your back since u was a pup.
The f**k u say!?! U got my back!?! Wasn't it u who tried convincing me to step up to crack!?!
Oh! You wanna bring up that? Well, if u wanna drop facts, I'm sorry. I was just trying to help u kick smack, get that monkey off of your back.
Hell nah! I was never hooked on H, just full of pain and needed something to take its place. Slow my pace, keep from going out and catching a case. Committing hate crimes against my own race. Runnin up and slappin a cop dead in da face then hauling *ss just for the thrill of the chase. Then really f**k with em when they're trying to cuff me not wanting to touch me me Cuz my bra and thong are black lace. They're all here to judge me believe they're above me Cuz I got weird ways. Pepper sprays all in da face like I'm at some kinda mace buffet. Burning my eyes like a gay parade, it'll be this way til my dying day.
Whoa! I thought I was nuts but u got some issues. Was u trying on bras til u found one that fits u? Or did u go old school and pack one with tissue? With lace underwear and ag-cut hair, which drug was it u misused?
Man u need to chill or get a fistful. Keep it up and get cut by the butt of my pistol. Cold steel 45 like the hood where I reside tool most used to go right up side, your muthafukn head to split your wig up wide. Blood gushing down your face like a water park slide, do some more dope so I can enjoy the ride from way up hi. I wouldn't even tell how u screamed and cried you're lucky u made it Cuz u should have died. I've never killed anyone but bet I've tried. Unless the kind supply is dry I'm just not that guy that be taking lives. But that don't mean I don't be raping wives that ain't mine. Cutting off nipples with steak knives takes time. I've never seen a p***y that didn't need to be circumsized to be fine. Cuz the excess skin on a vagina is a woman and all of her lies. Cut that **** off and find perfection, without that I can't even keep an erection. But sex doesn't give my life direction. I need narcotics to keep from blurting out descriptive confessions of my explicit obsessions. Fear and drugs make me cum without sexing. Dope in my system and tears in your eyes, that shits the best man. But if I leave your spot with your guts in tact, ***** count your blessings, but count fast cuz ill be back for what I left in. Rip your p***y right out your body leave all the rest in. Do it so clean I could charge for lessons, take notes and study cuz u know ill be testin.
Dog!!! What the f**k is wrong w/u? U should lay off the drugs, seems as though throughout your growth u missed out on some hugs. Maybe u should consider not even doing dope...
There u go man! U were the one that gave me the rope, taught me to make a noose and tie loose around my throat. What!? Now all of a sudden you're scared and can't cope? Growing a conscious? Want me to stop this beast that u woke? What happened Mr. "Lets do some Coc"?
I'm sorry dog hit this dro, take a toke.
F**k u man!!! I'm fienin for a b***h to choke w/*** to grope, watch her eyes and get off to the moment she loses all hope. F**k all this s**t I'm feeling ambitious, wanna rape and kill the pope. And not in that order I swear I wanna f**k that a*s cold. Then prance around his office in his in his hat and robe. Sit at his desk and twist a primo Just a lil bit of green and a **** load of blow, looks like a mini forest all covered in snow. I hope the mini people had nothing to do or nowhere to go. I hope they have bones to slam or spades to throw. Here mini-guy use red hairs as logs for your fire. Say man wanna hit this hog? Get higher? Nah u want your daddy, he ain't go for a jog he's retired.
This ain't right we should bounce dog,
LIAR!! I remember now u was there last night. U had me fukn up that dude, when u started that fight. And u was fukn w/lil dude that kept saying,"tite" just to get high. Talking bout,"lets get on it, dudes got some **** in the bathroom" I was good I had a blunt in my hand, didn't have to. That s**t kills my bud & u know what comes after, u b***h up & leave me to clean up your trail of disaster. But u like it when I steal off on a dude w/no hesitation,u know I don't smoke weed for recreation. You fukn know its used by me respectfully as medication. When some s**t goes down it slows my responses, allows me the time to consider the consequences of what's going on and me gettin involved w/it. Imma always ride, forever do or die. But I can get by not having to always try to be so superfly. The people I want around me are already by my side. But u get me on them lines and tell me one of'ems dying still the only thing I'm trying to find is a taller ladder to climb. Even it out w/a corona, no lemon no lime. Catch my breathe w/a cigarette... and I'm out committing more crimes. And your over there all "calm down signs"if u couldn't handle this s**t u shoulda let me stay blunted. Now u got Walsh showing my face on the country's most wanted. And I wasn't built for joggin & runnin, son of hip hop bred by the streets for shocking & stunnin, pulling double glocks and gunnin. Takin on whole crews and leavin whole blocks done in. Now cuz of u the cops are comin, lights, sirens, the ghetto-birds hummin.
Come on dog, lets turn ourselves in, it won't be that bad we get fat in da pen.
Us? We? These are pronouns unused by me, I never saw u in TDC.
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u see! They don't know who u are I'm the one on TV, when shots ring ill be the one who bleeds. F**k that, f**k them, f**k u and me, cuz ill never allow the statesman to read "THE MACK SHOT DOWN BY APD" but I don't mind shooting myself as a show of support.
Quit playing dog we should do OK in court we can't stay here forever its a house not a fort.
Shut the f**k up man, cut that s**t short, its time to do what moms didn't.
What dog?
Abort...Last edited by ROBBMACK; 11-22-2011 at 10:59 AM.
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That verse was sick homie...just started writing again...how was my verse any input?
