what we could of been

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I'm not going to lie its been one hell of an emotional ride
trying to get you by my side,
i would of done anything even if it ment laying my life on the line
to complete the image in my mind
that forever you'd be mine,
honestly thought there were so many signs,
think about where one a kind's of the same kind,
**** i musta been love blind telling my lie's to the point i've had to cut off all tie's,
if you taught me anything its one can never to be wise
and to shield your emotions like a wolf in disguise,
i vowel to never bowel down and hide just be more careful who i let into to my life and mind,
I hope you can admit some of the blame as you did lead me on like my feelings where just a game,
made me feel i was going insane,
1 min i want you out my head then when were lying in bed i'm having thoughts of you bearing my last name,
now its just memories of our friendship that remains
but the only thing is for me they have to be chained up with chains till one day they'll get dug up once again
when i have more control and they can be tamed,
its ok, i can see sunshine through the rain,
see the light in the dark someone special out there holds the key to your heart,
so for now i must depart before further chemistry is given time to spark.
I wish you luck on the seperate journey were going to embark.
They say the dove is a representation and a symbol of love,
well ****..if i gave you two million of the ****ers it still wouldn come close to enough,
at one point i loved you 2 much like a fat man loving his is lunch, thought i was getting one step closer when really it was a blow to the crutch,
so much times been miss spent all that emotional stress wasted, cos no longer you have my nuts castrated,
metaphorically speaking u had become 1 of my demons
and was harder than you'll ever know 2 turn round +face it, ll
ike henry the 8th overcoming being banned from his own banquet,
just like him i wouldn av it,
thought it was love in our eyes turns out nothing but ****,
without all the mind games i cud picture bliss
and thanks for all those hours we shared gave me plenty of memories to reminiss,
u where the complete opposite of a ***** u had issues but nothing that couldnt be fixed,helping you i cudn
Resist cos honestlyThought fate had more left in wait,
your a special friend much more than a mate
with you i could move mountins creating earthquakes,
making the whole equator shake as tectonic plates smash together at an enormous rate,
i do hope you get the picture that i try to demonstrate
and place in your mind as a mental portrait. Too late for your input its one i've conquered buried and squandered,
thats the decision i've come to after sitting about and pondered, gained back control refused to collapse bowel down or fold, instead got over it during a two week k hole.
Gained back a lost part of my soul now the dice was in my hands and my turn to roll,
have better odds on if my life it turns out bright or dull.
If you smoke you have a choice either ciggys roll ups or even memphol
every choice could be bad but more often than not there its helpfull managed 2 accept the facts and not b resentfull,
now it's hysterical but certainly memorable and at the same time diabolical.
I wish you all the best in life's quest
remember theres no time for rest!! Now this really is peace and ove xx



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WOW, it's alot of words...

very good work

Thank you very much means alot needs bit of tweaking