Episode 104 & 205 song in online version.

Hey.

I'm looking for a song in episode 104 of the Hills, and I think it's also in episode 205.
But the problem is, the songs that are used in the television versions are different from the version online.
So I can't find the song in the lists.

It goes like:
there's a place in my heart that could hurt you... but then you'd know I care...
If I ever have the nerve to deserve you...

http://www.mtv.com/overdrive/?id=1566722 (episode 104)
http://www.mtv.com/overdrive/?id=1551839 (episode 205)

Hope someone knows it and can tell me!

forget to edit the time..
it's at 11 minutes in episode 104
and at 12 minutes in episode 205

someone who knows??!! please!

I found new lines from the song:


'there's a place in my heart that could hurt you,
but then you'll know i care
and if i ever had the nerve to deserve you,
i'd still be here

cause you let me walk away
......
......
it's all up to us
and there's no one to blame
just let me start over again.'