Alright. This one started out kinda oddly. I was driving around and heard Beyonce's new song "If I Were A Boy" on the radio, and thought the concept was so pointless that I had to see just what she had to say.....and I was right. I didn't really think it was very good and that the point of the song was, in fact, not there. But as I listened, I started thinking about ways I could use the whole "if I were a...." concept, and the line "if I were a dead man walking" and the idea of what I would tell people if I only had a limited time left before dying kinda intrigued me. This is what came out of those thoughts. I give you......DEAD MAN WALKING.
I watch the lifeless scene
Of The Tragedy at home.
A careless family, loud, obnoxious,
Destroying all my own.
The shrink had asked me,
"Son, what do you fear?"
I turned to him with broken eyes
And uttered what is dwelling here.
If I were the dead man walking
Nothin would ever go unsaid,
No I'm sorrys, no I love yous.
I would much rather be dead.
I have seen the cost of
Abuse and shattered trust.
I can tell you more than ever,
All those things have left me f***ed.
Wasted all that time to
Try to find my happiness
And watched it all come crashing down
And fade away to nothingness.
She came and asked me,
"Babe, do you regret those days?"
I turned to her with a broken heart
And told her through a teary gaze.
If I were a dead man walking,
You'd know my words were true.
Every second that I lived would
Be a priceless gift with you.
I now know the kind of man
I am and now should be,
But will that man still be alive
To help me continue to see?
People still have yet to learn
Why I am the way I am.
They ask me what I fear,
I tell them, "In the end,
When all is said and done,
When daylight melts to night,
My only fear is there's
No time to make things right."
I'm just a dead man walking,
Time is counting down.
Though my mistakes are killing me,
It's in those choices I am bound.
I'm not sure when or why
My life will leave from this,
But for now I'll sit and wait.
This world is what it is.