Pourin my pains out

oh no! here we go again!... i got dat pen
da same old pain dat f***s with ma brain
i swear to god i feel like am goin insane
i swear am so over loaded.... i feel like a tin of sardine...
coz if its not aaliya its naylat or ... Maisha-Sareen <<< (my daughters)
rest in peace to the one who's not here... and am sayin 'AMEN'
but why is it all me, why is it all t, its just garra be he...
he who brought these seeds... these 3 little magic beans
they say " ama river that i cant live without ma main streams"
yes, just this one time i wanna take it to the extreames...
i wanna say all their names as if they were all just one queen!!.
coz this ent right, let me just spit whats in ma mind ...
ma rhymes are true life of mine, and these lines.....
are enough to keep me happy for a life time
no, i cant be afraid... i cant forever be a slave of this grade!!
and end up in ma grave at an early age ... getin locked up inda dark cage!!
far from the world that u all trade..... just to servive to see the very next day!!
if i ever collapse!..... fall to bits and never see me adapt
but i swear i will never turn on ma back.. as if i had one last shot!!
the last shot i had was a shot of a cheap scorch...
yes without ma 3Gz!! i feel like am lost
without these 3. i feel like am broke
all i see is a reflection of ma own ghost
but i promise they wont be no mo lies, infact sometimes i do cry
just most of the time i cry with ma eyes dry
Ma pop left and i never had a chance to say goodbye


Now u tell me.. wether these are harsh lines ...?
are they realy hard rhymes? its a hard life.......am just hard to learn....
especially when am hard on this blunt!!....am hard to come!!