Göksel, Mektubumu Buldun Mu? Translate please

Göksel - Mektubumu Buldun Mu

Ben gidince mektubumu buldun mu
Nerededir diye eşe dosta sordun mu
Yalan dedin belki de hiç inanmadın
Geri döner bilirsin böylesine seven kadın

Anladım yıllar sonra senden kopmuşum
Mutlu günleri beklerken yorulmuşum
İstemem gölgen bile kalmasın
Benim için sen artık bir yabancısın

Seni özledim daha şimdiden, senden gitmeden
Sana nefretimi terkettiğimi, unuttum birden

Hemen koşup yırttım yazdığın mektubu
Bekledim hergeceki gibi yolunu
alışmışım meğer ben her şeyine
Yaşantına ismine beni çağıran sesine

Seneler sonra bir gün bana sorarsan
Anlatırım dönüşümü yarı yoldan
Alışkanlık bin betermiş aşktan
Ayırmasın Tanrım seni yanımdan

Would anyone translate this song for me please? Thanks.

Dve E

Something like that, hope it helps (i added a few words -not changing the script though- so that it sounds alright):

Göksel – Have you found my letter?

Have you found my letter after i’m gone?
Did you even ask friends about its whereabouts?
Denying it, saying it’s a lie, so maybe you never believed
You thought, a woman who loves that much would eventually come.

I understood that, many years later, that i was already away from you,
Got tired of waiting for happy days to be true.
I don’t even want a shadow of you to stay
You’re a stranger to me now, so stay far away.

I’ve missed you already before i even left.
Forgot about my hate and that i left you for that.

I ripped your letter into pieces
And waited for you to come like every night i did
I grew addicted to your everything so it looks
Addicted to the way you live your life, the way you call my name

If you ask me one day years later from that
I’ll tell you about my coming back from the half-way
Getting addicted to is much worse than love
God, may never leave me without you anywhere anytime.