i wrote this as it was coming into my head
its represents how ive come to notice that my drug addictions and mental disorders have taken over. and how i should have never moved in the direction i have becuase ive let down most of the people in my life that loved me the most. and how errogant i was to not realize ive let my vices take over my emotions...... i was never that good with words anyways.

this house has an overwhelming presence.
an uncontrolable obsession to keep me here.
and i can't quite place the blame.
how did i get here?
was this me all along?
ive let myself go. let my worst half take over.
the new me seems so unforgiving. so careless
i seem to be giving in to the temptation
so easy. so painless
youll look so beautiful tonight
being the search light for the sirens in the distance
it was so easy to fulfill your destiny
ill sit here and watch you burn to the ground
sirens in the distance
my life starts now.

comment if you feel the need..im open to anything.