This song is about that douche-bag I wrote most of my songs about , the one who tried to change me. Well, I'm a smart girl and my marks are really good, and he was jealous so he said he will break up with me if I don't change that , because these were his group's rules : "We're all the same,to avoid jealousy". I managed to convince him to accept me , but after a while he broke up with me , and he said "If you cared, you would've changed" . I was like "baby, I'm nothing but who I am and if you loved me, you would've accepted me" . And then I did the biggest mistake of my life : I tried to cut , but I realized it wouldn't help.
I long to tell you the truth, but you don’t want to hear me
For me it’s blurry but for you it never was clearer
I’m talking to the walls and you’re only hearing yourself
You seem to ignore the things you said you felt
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I know what you think, and you think I never cared
You blame me for leaving behind the moments that we shared
With someone else in your arms, it’s hard to feel my pain
But now honestly, I wish I had your strength
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Moving along and staying strong, it all sounds so easy coming from you
I wanna see you putting a mask to fit in, like I had to
After changing, rearranging, it’s hard to pretend it didn’t exist
If it ain’t real then why is it carved on my wrist?
I long to explain myself, but you will not believe me
I don’t even know what I can say to be forgiven
You’ve got your mind made up and you’re only hearing your thoughts
You seem to ignore all of the walls we fought
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I know what you think, and you think I am to blame
You hate me for being myself, and baby that’s not fair
With someone else in your arms, it’s hard to feel my pain
But now honestly, I wish I had your strength
-Chorus-
Moving along and staying strong, it all sounds so easy coming from you
I wanna see you putting a mask to fit in, like I had to
After changing, rearranging, it’s hard to pretend it didn’t exist
If it ain’t real then why is it carved on my wrist?
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If I would’ve tried to change you like you did, you would’ve gone away
And if I said this to your face, you would deny everything that I say
You make me feel like I mean nothing at all, but I mean more than you do
Stick with that small-brained doll, cause you deserve her too
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I know what you think; you think I’m jealous of her
But you were jealous of me, cause baby I’m better
With someone else in your arms, it’s hard to feel my pain
But now honestly, I wish I had your strength
-Chorus-
Moving along and staying strong, it all sounds so easy coming from you
I wanna see you putting a mask to fit in, like I had to
After changing, rearranging, it’s hard to pretend it didn’t exist
If it ain’t real then why is it carved on my wrist?