So naive . . . )

MAYBE
I lift my anchor, I set my sails
heading for the infinite blue
not afraid to capsize
not afraid to drown
for I've already drowned in you

I see floating .... and sunken wheels
drowned a monster .... at falls
marked.... for I've lost my mind
but the smile X's on your treasure map

maybe someday you'll find me there
but for now I'm lost

Afloat, adrift, ashore

PIRATES

Don't you see my eye patch and the parrot on my shoulder
don't you see the .... are on my notes
I don't plan of staying n this bay
I'm gonna take what i need and sail away
I heard that's what pirates do

My ship doesn't need no anchor
my crew doesn't need no rest
my life doesn't need no other
there's a rock inside my chest

Don't you see my peg leg and the tattoos on my shoulder
that 's the proof that i can't be your friend
you should keep chained folks like me
I'm gonna take what i need and sail away
cause that's what pirates do

I don't need no hidden treasures
I don't be..........
if you cut a part of my rib cage
what you find is rough and cold

My ship doesn't need no anchor
my crew doesn't need no rest
my life doesn't need no other
there's a rock inside my chest

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COLOURS

I don't see how those clouds rolled in
how could they gather so ........ and fast
rain, rain down on me
soft through my skin

I caught the rain with my hands
felt it tremble on my face
saw it drifting ....
to the ground and slip away

The heavy clouds above open
to reveal the brightest sky
the sparkling drops of purple ...
leaving me dry

there is salt on my cheeks
there's a tremor in my chest
but nothing else reminds me
of the love....

colours across the sky

IT FLEW AWAY

Something left me
like the clorophyll left the leaves
I put my hand on my chest
just to feel if i still breathe
and .... I rise slowly as i am ill
but the air takes.......

It was still hard this morning when i awoke
from the dreaming in which i felt i would choke
my neck was swollen and was gasping for air
something locked my throat and i gave way to despair

And i coughed, and i retched
and i bend, and i stretched to get this thing out
and suddenly i felt a lump of feathers in my mouth
and a gray little bird came to life in my ......
covered in spit but all healty and calm
and sang me songs to sleep came over me
but after my awakening it was nowhere to see
so I lost ......
it didn't fly away

but now and ever I have ..... one .... to rest
I try to hear a hint of beating.... in my chest
for now that the flapping is gone
I realize that I was there alone
and now that I know what was that beat
I know that I will never feel complete, again

SOUVENIRS

When you bit me you should've bitten harder
so .... a little mark of your teeth on my flesh
what i have to .... ever after
reminders of your laughter, your shiny livery

To get tangled in your stair
run my finger through your hair
to get wrappped around your finger
that you drawn through mine
was foolish but it felt so fine

what is left is some paper scraps with pictures
a raincoat yellow shirt and this thing on my chest
curly hairs that I've losted on your blanket
that salt from tears that I shed when you were fast asleep

even this will not remain
time to wash it down the drain
to get wrapped around your finger
yet lost in your eyes
was foolish but it felt so nice

Now that souvenirs I kept
can't disguise that it's .....
to get wrapped around your finger
as you took my heart
was foolish but it felt so grand

Was that i had looking for
was I a lover or your w.hore
got me wrapped around your fingers
you disarm me there
so would you keep some parts of me?

SKIN

While you are asleep
I took a waterproof pen
and wrote a hidden message
on to your mellow skin
saying

I was here, I have touched this
then soon for an instant this body
was all mine

Skin has chafed
and skin has shed
the light has fade away
I won't have left a single mark on you
but it's ok

I was here, I have touched this
then soon for an instant
I wished you were mine

WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG
When you were young and full of life
with so many virtues, things you'd strive
eager to grow and to explore a world unseen

where didi you go when did I lose your tracks
where did you go, and whom are you become

Those things will fade in ____
does your play hiding has turned to dust

when did you lose your will to live
what was___ take you good might forgive

where did you go when did you run away
where did you go, what caused your dismay

where did you go, where did i lose your track
what ___ you so, so whom are you become

RELAPSE

This is the wind calling and pleading me out
knocking against my window
whispering "play with me please, please"
the glittering flakes're falling from heavy white clouds
all that was gray is white again and sets my mind at ease

I don't dare leaving the house tonight
I don't care what you say I will stay inside
I don't dare leaving the house tonight
I don't care what you say, it was said for insight

One of my friends called me to ask what I do
I could answer I'm crossing ttheir names
off the list of my heart
I've spent most of the days crawling, ___ letters to you
only to ___ the paper and tear it apart

I don't dare leaving the house tonight
I don't care what you say I will stay inside
I don't dare leaving the house these days
I don't care what you offer, it is not what I seek

This is the wind blowing the towels off of my room
only a candle____ forever in my view
crawl under the bed knowing I can't and
I'm unable to know
yes, _____ and safe in here

I don't dare leaving the house tonight
I don't care what you say I will stay inside
I don't plan leaving the house this year
if by then you still remember me you'll find me here

HYDROPHOBIA

I've always liked to watch the sea
its sight and sound are soothing me
I've always preferred to keep a safe distance
I feel fright for fear the waves would swallow me
and pull my body down down
the ground is heavy hard but make me
sink like the stolen ground

These waters are beautiful but oh so unpredictable
I'm not sure if ___ are willing to caring me
these waters are beautiful but presumed to be leave out
I am too afraid to try, i am too afraid

You don't have to be afraid__
just commit yourself to the element of force
it will lift you up it will hold your head above the waves
it's dragging me down, i said, feel it dragging me down
I will drown i will drown, it won't lift me up
you can't hold me, I'm certainly bound to go down

These waters are beautiful but oh so unpredictable
I'm not sure if ___ are willing to caring me
these waters are beautiful but presumed to be leave out
I am too afraid to die, i am too afraid

As you push me into the water
I struggle and furiously strain
waiting for the waves to break above my head
and take me down with them
and as I grow tired ___ i slow come to realize
__ you spitefully__ knowing I could
_____