Fikret Kızılok - Vurulmuşum

[ilkin]

lyrics: ahmed arif
music: fikret kızılok
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Vurulmuşum
i've been shot

Vurulmuşum, dağların kuytuluk bir boğazında
Vakitlerden bir sabah namazında
Vurulmuşum, yatarım kanlı, upuzun

i've been shot in a secluded strait of mountains
it was about the morning prayer time
i've been shot, i lie in blood, at full length

(refrain)

Kirvem hallarımı böyle yaz
Rivayet sanılır belki
Gül memeler değil bu
Domdom kurşunu
Paramparça ağzımdaki

my kirve, write my story as such (*)
or it might be taken as rumor
it's not breasts of rose
it's a domdom bullet (**)
all in pieces that's in my mouth (or, in my mouth that's all in pieces)


Vurulmuşum, dağların kuytuluk bir boğazında
Vurulmuşum, düşüm gecelerden de kara
Canımı alırlar ecelsiz, sığdıramam kitaplara
Vurulmuşum, düşüm gecelerden de kara

i've been shot in a secluded strait of mountains
i've been shot, my dream is even darker than the nights
they take my life before my appointed time, i can't squeeze it to fit into books
i've been shot, my dream is even darker than the nights

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(*) kirve: someone who sees all the expenses of the circumcision feast of a boy, holds the boy's hands and arms while he was being circumcised by sitting him on his laps and acts like a godfather to him throughout his life.

hallarımı: local way of saying hallerimi, meaning, my cases, my situations, that which happened to me, that which befell upon me, etc.

(**) see note here

[marmaris]

ilkin this is really wonderful..they said this poem in ''hatirla sevgili'' did u watch it? they were fabtastic!

[ilkin]

no, i didn't (in fact, i can't watch tv much).

now that you've mentioned it, it's suddenly struck me that "hs" in a comment on the video page, which goes like "i heard it in hs and really liked it," was "hatırla sevgili!" silly me! i was wondering what the heck this hs would be.

hey, wait. i've just opened the video page again and ta da! there is a new comment and it explicitly names the tv series, which i've never watched any episodes.

the full version of the poem is too long for me to translate.

[ilkin]

i found a translation of the full poem here. i insert here the part in the song, modifying it so as to match the lyrics:

In a solitary corner of the mountains
At the hour of morning prayer
I lie
stretched
Long, bloody

Kinsman, write my story as it is
Or they might think it a fable
These are not rosy nipples
But a dumdum bullet
Shattered in my mouth

I have been shot (In a solitary corner of the mountains)
(I have been shot) My dreams are darker than night
My life gone before its time
I cannot put it into words
(I have been shot) My dreams are darker than night