I don't know if i'm doing good or bad... But if i don't write these to you, it's going to be a burden on me. When there are many people around me, i helplessly chose you, i loved you. i don't know why. when i don't speak to you you're still in my mind. i just wanted to know that you're well. Nothing more. Once i saw you sad in my dream so i messaged you and you shot back at me angrily, that made me even more upset. I know you never loved me. You liked me as a friend or person but never more than that. But you acted like you did at one stage and i saw other things that broke my heart. It isn't important anymore. I seem like i don't care about you but really, you're always on my mind. I'm sorry about your friend. I wanted to say these to you. Nothing is the way it was before. Maybe it's a mistake writing these to you but i had to. i saw the other day, you added that person as a friend, AGAIN. This is why i'm going to stay even more away from you. i didn't tell you what i feel inside but sometimes you really made my insides ache. I think this that you've done has violated the rules of that belief of yours which you really give importance to. This is why don't ask me if i read that book. Anyway i want to stay friends with you and nothing more, i want to end this invisible upsetedness between us.
i don't know if i am 100% grammatically correct, but the other person will understand
