Back when

I'd probably lose you if you ever caught a plane trip
Light up like Vegas when you land upon that main strip
Guess you lost me with that things'll never change sh*t
You always complain but you never wanna say quit
I understand cuz two stubborn minds think alike
Accuse me of all that I'm like hmm think I might
You're lackin substance or you're shielded you ain't all there
You're fightin dirty and you're mad I didn't play fair
But everything comes around if you stay here
And all the work I put in I gotta get my fair share
You say I'm selfish baby how you think I got here?
And what I do for you is somethin you can't compare
It ain't enough for you I guess I shoulda been clear
You told me f*ck off as if I don't belong here

And it hurts but I'll move on too
Just hope you got your guard up for when they move on you
Cool hot and kinky you're my Moulin Rouge
But you're so tempered I can tell I'm losin you
Tell a full on truth spill it baby girl an honest moment
The closest thing I ever had but I didn't own it
That doublespeak well you caught on me the same way
You left me empty now I start to feel the same way

{2}

it's somethin like a bad dream
it all feels so unusual
i wake up and i'm still here
do you even see my anymore

it's somethin like a bad dream from which i can't wake up
is this my life or is it ever enough
are you still mine or did you give up
would love to do some thing but i don't got time
how do i do it all well i lost my mind
i give less of a f*ck in all due time
still pressed for my luck til i get mine
if you don't understand well then nevermind
but the day you do i hope it all comes together
hope it all comes through and it all gets better
so even if you hate me and i can't bear it still got your back forever i swear it

it's somethin like a bad dream
it all feels so unusual
i wake up and i'm still here
do you even see my anymore

meetin with her after dark
and it’s a secret we keep movin with the silence
never made a single mark
we were lost in the sea on our own damn island
swallowed by oblivion
wrap me up with wishes i’ll see you in a while
smokin into charcol lungs
but we’re toastin to you yeah all is in your honor

smokin diet cigarettes
well she was too cool to speak but she was callin for me
take a breath and take a hit
and i’ll take all the blame if it can wait until the morning
nothin saved nothin yet
just tears sweat and blood pourin on each other
her lips taste like a nicorette
why even try cuz we’ll never beak our habit

misery i left her there
couldn’t bear to take her grimacing expression
everything you ever said
is ringin through my ears but i never learned my lesson
wonder if she noticed yet
but with the blood on our hands we still asks for jesus blessings

{4}

look
all bottled up
til the moment i explode
don’t blame me
this is all i’ll ever know
thanks to my devotion
lost in the moment
these sound like your problems
sorry i can’t solve them
i did all i could for you
now i’m feelin robbed and
you really push my buttons
tryin for perfection but perfection man is hopeless
we gotta have our regrets life is what we cope with
life is what we make it i feel i’m almost famous
bout to see my dreams
if that means goin without you then that is what i see
you can doubt hate or fear me but this is what i mean
that i never made a promise to myself i couldn’t keep
and in the moment i’m just honest and it’s somethin you can’t see
well then call me visionary even when **** is gettin scary
and it’s all over my head feels like i can barely breath
will power over everything this what i see
and if you can’t see it fine then i guess you should ****in leave
and i’m way to close to lose my cool
or lose my spot would that make me fool
and i don’t have time
and all the wasted emotions
holdin on to somethin that was never meant to be
caging up an animal that was meant to run free
and even if you don’t see
just know til the end that i still ****in believe