I had been fighting for a perfect picture worse than dentures,
But I decided to crawl out of the trenches for a temptress,
Ignoring phone calls from the Mrs.,
Creeping with this young mistress,
No kisses, no intentions,
She was all business,
And Yeah I liked her,
She doesn't bother with *****ing,
But as of late, I take a liken to sitting..

And thinking, how does my life go,
No tv show,
But we're not on the same strokes,
Still let you please know that I keep hope,
Despite vows I revoked,
Even though I eloped,
And broke down..
My house looking like a ghost town,
And now my kids treat me like I treat their mother,
I dwell on a time when we'd complete each other,

Admitting I can't make up for all that we're missing,
While my child tells me she can't see me till Christmas,
And it was only June, no wish list,
I Pray my son grows just like me even if I'm not with him,
And give him the strength to protect his younger sister,
Hope you hear this again,
As I repent,
And break down,

No, this one wasn't drug induced,
No, this time I only want to use the noose,
Not loose, no juice,
Let the memories fade out,
Just as I breathe out with my last breakdown,
Walked out with everything but her wedding ring and gown,

And I know she didn't need to take the pictures,
But just to let me know I wasn't going with them,
My stolen will,
just like the typical, premature funeral,
Once the dark has consumed you,
Face dawn, find the beautiful,
Rise to the beat of your own drum,
and keep on marching until kingdom come,

Sometimes this fast life can't find me too sober,
But I know it's much slower from six feet lower,
I'm just glad to be here, so I can take this chance to breakdown..

Though I'm not the bomb yet,
As For now,
I am still a bomb threat,
Nowhere close to done yet,
Like Caught Waiting for the sun just to find that your moment's not coming,
Let me see you Breakdown...