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hi dear forum users ! ı need your help ,please someone help me , ı need what she say?someone transcript of the interview ? really important to me...



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MGFCqYtInKY

Good Father
I mean we could, I guess we could talk to eachother about anything, I guess I was a big thing in a relationship but I don't know if he was a good husband or not, really he is the only husband I have been with, so I can't compare him to anybody else.
What kind of a dad is he?
He is an excelent father, he loves the kids very much,
whenever there is anything,a field trip or anything that has to do with school or any other activities that she is involved in, you know..he is always right there, if there is anything...
if she is upset about something or needs to talk or just needs to be confident he is always lending a helping hand...he always want to be there for her...he is always asking her,, try to stay involved in her life... how is she feeling , how is her day, what is going on,...he is just always there for her.

Impact of Fame
It just seems like ever since... he is got.. you know.. famous blow up... just our relationship went down hill from there...you know...he became arrogant and kaki
and everything that he did for me or the kids he has to be praise for...you know...
you know...and he is so used to get in so much attention
people praising him for his work that he expects that when he come home
and it is not the same ...I don't look at him like that...you know
I'm not going to (...........)
you are not that person to me...you know
and that what he wants all the time...
and it just didn't work out...
money is great... yeah..you know
when the kids want anything they can have whatever they want...but it doesn't make your husband stay at home with you
or sleep in the same bed with you...
and when your husband is famous and always gone and not there you are basically there alone...anyways...so
I mean money doesn't put somebody in bed next to me to hold on to it..you know.

Infidelity
Do you think... the affairs that you had , had to do more with the loneliness or in someways of getting back at him for not being there?
I just really wanted attention and love from somebody...you know!
I was lonely and I didn't have very good self-esteem...you know!
But a lot of people... have affairs to get back at their lovers...
I'm sure that(............................................. ...................................).
we both had our moments of infidelity...I can't even count them on hand...you know...both hands how many times he has done it!
but I'm not out there...you know...publicly humiliating him... and putting all his faults out there for the whole world to criticize him over.

Response to "kim" song
I was embarrassed.. I was humiliated...I cried...
you know I have to make sure that my kids doesn't hear it and then I just wonder what people think of me..you know... I just .. it's...it's not a good feeling..
What make you cry?
just the lyrics, and the fact he would...but...just!
he is supposed to be the one who loves me
who protects me... you know from being hurt
and here he is completely and totally disrespecting me
and the worse by possible...in front of millions of people...and
in front of our kids , my family and my friends...
and now it just makes me angry because of what everyone thinks to me...
and the fact that now I realize...you know...there must not have been much love there for him to do that...
I wasted so many years thinking there was.

"Kim" Performance & Suicide Attempt

I had went with my sister and some friends and had asked him before we went to the show if he was going to do the song and he said “no, because I know you are going to be there and I wouldn’t do that to you.” and I was there in the middle section on the main floor and sure enough, he decided to do that song and not only perform the song but use a blow up doll to reenact me being choked and just disrespectful things to the blow up doll and then threw the doll into the crowd. like for him to do that in front of thousands upon thousands of people knowing that I’m out there and watching everyone just singin the words and laughing and jumping around and just approval and just..I couldn’t take it..I don’t know. that’s complete spite, especially knowing that you’re going to be sitting in the front row right there. and I immediately left after that. I got into a car accident on the way home, I was so upset. I made it home and I couldn’t gather my senses. and I went upstairs in my bathroom and I slit my wrists and ended up in the hospital.

Song's Message to kids
Especially their father...you know...somebody who is supposed to teach them respect and...I don't, I don't appreciate what he has written in the songs about me...I don't appreciate them being played around our children...and I'm sure it doesn't set a good example for them...especially, you know...letting them believe that it's ok for a man to disrespect you like that in anyway is not acceptable to me.

you are welcome
sorry to keep you waiting...

Rehab
Tell me how you guys get back together?So you said you went into rehab and you were away from the kids...and at that point where did the kids end up?
The kids were with Marshall and a...
He had full custody...he had yeah, full custody of the kids.
Did his parenting draw you to him at all? No.
Did his being responsible though while you were away make you admire him a little bit?Yeah, I mean I was grateful you know...Thank god that he was there...because you know...I never know what would happen to the kids...you know...yeah I'm very grateful...you know...and he was very responsible and very loving towards kids...you know.
And when you got out of rehab what happen? I came home from being incarcerated in rehab and he had ask me to stay a few nights at the house so I could be with the kids...and a few nights turn into a few weeks to a year...so I was home actually two years before...I mean...well year and a half...almost two years before we got married.

Eminen Pops The Question A Second Time
I was excited I was happy...but at the same time I thought he was rushing things a little...you know.
Why? Because usually...I don't know...in our relationship there is a pattern like we will have two good years then it will go bad for some reason...It's a two years max with us
and we had not reach the two years yet...and I just don't want to rush into anything before the two years.

2nd Marriage
what was the second wedding like?
It was umm...rushed...and I didn't want to get marry...he had said "pick a date"...and I said "well let's wait a while"...and he basically said...you know...we...you either know now and we can set the date...or you know you can just take your self and go...because if you don't know right now that you still want to be with me then...then you are never going to know!
So you got married for the second time? Yeah.
Lovely, candles and flowers...
It was a beautiful wedding...
Describe it for me...
Ugh...I had the big dress and all of our family and friends...and the kids read...I mean he had our kids read at the wedding...you know...It was gorgeous, It was beautiful...
I loved it...I loved every minute of it.
But shortly thereafter things went wrong?
Yeah, He left our home February twenty fifth...he actually physically left the home.
What happen?
There was a disagreement between me and his brother...
About what?
Inappropriate behavior that his brother had...yes, and that is what it was...and then in the next morning there was a note in the bathroom
that said:"I'm going to the other house I need to clear my head".
I'm so confused about the whole thing...
It's so...It's baffling to me...
It's baffling to me too...
He went...he didn't even come around for a month after that...Like he didn't come see the kids...he was not calling me...he didn't return phone calls...I didn't know what the heck is going on!!! and then his attorney's assistant
comes to the door and serves me papers!
Did he break your heart?
Yeah, This time he did.
How did he do that?
Cause I feel like he just use me this time...he used me...and he didn't just hurt me this time...
he had our kids read at our wedding...
and then...What?! Forty days after our marriage he walked out cause of an argument with his brother! We have made it through me being incarcerated rehabs...different boyfriends and girlfriends an argument with his brother was enough to leave! There has to be something else going on...I just don't know what it is?!

Breaking Her Silence
I have never like went public with anything personal of his...
I was always just...
I didn't want to because I always thought in the back of my head like I know we are going to get back together and if I do or say anything...
you know...for the world to hear or to know...I was afraid that...you know...he won't be able to forgive me for that...and then we would not be back together...and I always hold on to that...and never wanted to ruin it...
And now?
Now I just...I know...there was not meant to be...I don't have feelings for him like that anymore.

thank you so much