Searching For Life

Verse one:
Wounded eyes, show the ache your mouth would never confess.
Worn out smile, show the pain that will never digress.
Hurting hands, will never touch the soul of another again.

Chorus:
You've done your best to get by
Through all the trouble you never asked why
You're standing at the top of the bridge,
clinging onto its rims.
Searching for life.

Verse two:
Empty heart, show the way to the light where I lay.
Tired feet, lead me too the better days I spent with you.
Trembling lips, will never kiss the soul of another again.

Chorus:
You've done your best to get by
Through all the trouble you never asked why
You're standing at the top of the bridge,
clinging onto its rims.
Searching for life.

Bridge:
I'm done searching for life.
Too much pain to survive.
I hold onto my wrists,
as I fall beneath the bridge.
Searching for life.



I promised myself I would never write about this. But it came into my mind and out came a song.
When I was 15 I hated myself. Everything about myself. I had a guy in my life who repeatedly tore me apart and changed me completely into what he wanted. When all I wanted to be was myself. I changed my hair color, cut my hair, lost weight, anything he wanted. I was anorexic blonde who cut her self all the time and I refuse to go back to that place. But while being in that place I lost everything. Including him. And when you've been shaped into being someone for so long when that person who shaped you leaves, you don't really know what to do because you've been told what to do for a long time.
So I lost my edge. I didn't know who to be anymore I didn't even really know how to speak for myself. So I jumped. Not off a bridge, but off a canal of rocks over the Atlantic. I figured the waves would have sucked me in or I would've hit my head on a rock. But as soon as I jumped in it was like, the water calmed and flattened completely. It went from 6 ft waves to dead silent, and I floated to the top.
And just like that, as easy as the water calmed, I realized I needed to not die but to re-find myself again. So I did. And here I am today. It was not easy, it was harder then anything I've ever had to do. But I'm blessed by marvelous people in my life. Who make it almost easy to want to be alive. Anyways, thank you for reading.
xxxx

I'm pretty much speechless... This song is extremely powerful and I hope you can write a verse after the bridge that says how you over came all of this baby. God has plans for you you may not think so but if you were meant to die that day you would have. I believe you are so much more than the mirror makes you believe. I know you have a future don't let your past dictate who you are and who you will be. Don't let others tell you who you are or who you need to be. Just be you and let your future unravel in a way that seems right to you.

I know baby. This was a dark part of my life that I am far from now-a-days. But I would be in the same kind of place if it wasn't for you.
I thank God for you every single day. You have changed my life. And never given me expectations of what you want me to be. Because you love me for me. And that the greatest blessing of them all. I love you <3

I'm a bit at a loss for words after reading this. All I can say is it's so wonderful that you were able to escape from those dark days. And found out life has so many beautiful things to offer. I'm sending you my good wishes and respect from across the ocean.

Thank you Peter
Every person goes through a hard time.
Some of them hit rock bottom. I was one who hit rock bottom.
But it only got better from there. And I continue to be blessed xx

Traingirl! Never met with such a bunch of honesty on this Forum before and I cannot say but: wishing you well on your way up.
I am glad you got away from tyranny and found yourself again
It is therefore that elsewhere I mentioned "Two weeks at the time", which is also a poemsong I wrote on my poetry thread 2012.
I seriously want to be in charge of life myself in the first place just in case of a case....
Remember that every second friendship /marriage /love relationship falls apart within a few years
That's why, baby, and start enjoying what you have and of the friends you have. They are precious!

Thank you sweetheart <3
If it wasn't for the people in my life I don't know where I'd be!

Very "Ode to Billie Joe"ish.That's a Classic from Bobbie Gentry,in case you don't know the reference.

I don't know If I should like this or not =( This was very sad, yet very good. And the fact you managed to create a song about this, letting the world know about your pain. I think you deserve some creds for that.

You have inspired me, so I will create something similar in the coming days, don't know when it will be out. But be sure to know, I'll let you know

Thank you so much <3 One of the reasons I write is to hope I bring people inspiration or even some form of relation so they don't feel alone.
YES please let me know