Happened Again (Drowning)

Hi, its been a long time since I was last here, 3 months in fact! I need to make a habit of coming back more regularly!! I've just finished writing a couple of songs. I wrote this one when I was going through a lot of problems in life. I was struggling with alcohol abuse which was brought on by depression, and one day I sat down and listened to all my favourite bands and songs and decided to write song that explained all my thoughts and feelings at that time, I hope you guys like it

Happened again
I find myself in a mess
P*ssing you off again
I know there's a reason
But it hurts my head
So I drink to hide the pain

Happened again
I bring myself
To a place I know so well
I hate feeling
Like I'm trapped inside
So I need to run and hide

I dont believe in luck
You get what you deserve
I long for days when I can
Walk away in a drunken haze
I've always felt the same

I'm drowning, not waving
I'm drowning, I hate it
I'm drowning, not waving
I'm drowning, I hate it

Happened again
I find myself in a mess
And I'm all alone
When I'm on my own
I want you home
So I drink to hide the pain

I long for days when I
Can walk away in a drunken haze
I dont belong around here
I was born in the wrong age
I cant control my rage

I'm drowning, not waving
I'm drowning, I hate it
I'm drowning, not waving
I'm drowning, I hate it

I know how that feels, been there and still struggling in other arenas so to speak! Keep it up, not only is it good to write what you are going through because it's real, but it also conveys what many others have probably been through or are experiencing. Did you write music with this as well??