please help with translation

i know its not a song but if somebody could please translate this for me in there spare time i would very much appreciate it.



aveces tengo miedo que busques lo que no encontraras en mi. ten en cuenta que es mi primera vez. que pongo a prueba mi corazon. y por ser la primera vez te pido. que lo cuido y lo valores.por que tengo miedo de tener una mala experiencia de amor. jamas antes habia querido enamorarme de una mujer por que tenia miedo a sufrir. el sufrimiento es algo que detesto. sabes por que. por que no me gusta hacer o que me hagan sufrir. por favor la mejor manera de demostrar me tu amor es siendo sincera con migo. oido la ipocrecia la mentira. te pido que `seas sincera con migo. yo se ya tomamos la desicion de casarmos. pero si algun dias crees que te equivocaste. y sientes deseo de otro hombre . dime lo. que yo por que te amo y quiero tu felicidad te dejare libre. para que vallas con el. auque me duela el alma. siempre deseare tu felicidad. te amo no lo olvides.
y este amor es el primero
y el ultimo que conosco.

Sometimes I'm afraid you may look for what you can't find in me somewhere else. Consider this is the first time I'm giving my heart to someone, and for that reason I'm asking you to take care of it and value it, as I'm afraid of having a bad experience in love. I had never before wanted to fall in love with any woman, as I was afraid of suffering. I despise suffering, you know why? because I don't like to suffer nor to make others suffer. Please, the best way for you to show me your love is by being honest with me. I hate hipocrisy and lies. I'm only asking you to be honest with me. I know we've already decided to get married, but if one day you should think you made a mistake and find another man, then tell me; I love you and want you to be happy, and I'll set you free so that you can go to him, even if it breaks my heart. I'll always want you to be happy. I love you, don't forget that.
And this love is the first
and the last one I'll know.

thank you SOO much i really really appreciate it

You're welcome