Dangers Of The Faithless

Here ya go guys, a brand new one for your critiquing enjoyment. No real story behind it, just bored at work. Enjoy!

What will happen when
All my faith explodes?
Everything I’ve said will go
To where no one knows.
A lifetime of trying
Has come to disappear
As their attempts to
Brainwash me don’t adhere.

Two more steps
Taken to the door,
I fall from grace
And see no more.

What happens now?
Will the darkness swallow me?
What have I done?
Is this what I should be?
Can they all see?
What curse is now in store?
Have I killed me?
Has danger settled the score?

What if I don’t believe
The same as they do?
Lost and deserted, they see
Myself as untrue.
The white façade can’t cover
The darkness within.
This ever-growing black,
It drives me to sin.

I see it's domination,
All the mistakes I’ve made.
The lie that I lived
Is all that I forbade.
The preaching of the
Inevitable redemption
Slid beyond my soul
And crashed into contention.

Five steps past
The point of no return.
This fallen angel
Got what he had earned.

Never believed
The holiness of love.
To believe is my sin.
When push came to shove,
I told them their faith
Because I didn’t know how
To think for myself.
Who can I believe in now?

What happens now?
Will the darkness swallow me?
What have I done?
Is this what I should be?
Can they all see?
What curse is now in store?
Have I killed me?
Has danger settled the score?