You know, I've been thinking about life
And where it leads, what our destination is
And even about the generic "live life in the moment"
And I have come to this conclusion:
"F*CK IT!"
Now, I'm not angry, or really even irritated
But rather awakened to this world
Awakened to see it's dark
The pain and suffering of good people
The gains of those who do not deserve them
I've been on this earth only just under 19 years
And have experienced death, disease, suicide, depression
Hatred, pain, and above all else
The emotion I believe I now feel is exhaustion
Now I am not suicidal, rather my insight is the furthest from
Now that I am on my own and free to my own will
I may be the happiest I have been in years
I'm just tired of all the bullsh*t that I have to witness
Grudges, empty threats, underhandedness,
These I must face even though I have left those choosing to do so
Now I do experience joy and I love the feeling
But I appreciate the fact that without pain and sadness
There would be no way to truly understand happiness or love
Speaking of, the concept of love confounds me
Media marketing wants us to believe
That by simply wanting something enough
Will allow us to obtain that which we desire
Well, my friends I call bullsh*t for desire is not enough
If it were so, the "love" of my life would be mine and I hers
However, this does not mean I am giving up
Rather I am focusing my attention to other aspects of my life
Taking care of myself so that one day I may take care of her
For I do believe in fate, "Que sera sera" "Whatever will be, will be"
And whatever will be...well I guess I'll have to wait and see