OneLuv A.K.A HomeGrown Productions

Song Title : Up against the wall


Inside I at times feeling I have to abide
By some contract keeping my rhymes abstract
Cause I push every emotion , one judgement pushed this motion
I lost my real sync , Call my wills the jynx

Cause I fight for so much , And still glued stuck
Over rated dispuits made your future the hoox
Call it a magical trick , Cause I’m not the one to suck the worlds ****
I live for myself , cause I’m living only for my physical health

I do my **** however I make the easiest fit
I live by one standard , live your dream , you a fan of her?
Some people do whats “best” , I say I don’t wanna be the rest
Dreams are the biggest reality , Feel that mentality

Because if we can accomplish higher , with more desire
then we all have more , and our passions don’t lay to the floor
We gotta make a stand , To every rap fan
I’m in my part of life where my one true love don’t strife , truly call the game my wife

Can you hear me releasing my stress , let myself address
to the ones who face crime , where *****es made the rough time
Make one last climb , to know through this rain
of a deep mental drain , Will not always keep us in vain

We just gotta let our self be , I wish they would all agree
To have simplicity and respect dignity
Cause I’m tired of being tied down to society , the rep should blow by me
Let me just fight over this wall , don’t make me dig under and crawl

So here to my PS , Who do this I to invest
lets call it to every ***** and trick , that made my mind sick
it caused me to lose my real being , and that I’m truly seeing
so I’ve already made and said would it take , I put my first damn recovery step to stake

Song title : My area



Grew up in lamoine , Where life tossed my chances like a coin
It was either this or that , Bros always had my back
We knew about the small community , Life was an immunity
Whos left to chose me , To them I’m blind to see

That my passion is something of there laughing
I’ll be the first to make your acclaim much worse
The *****es around here making something to fear
There ain’t 1 in between , ***** don’t understand my dream

That I just live for you are , is it so bad to ask that far?
I suppose so , Cause I let it all go
but I’m not complaining , because this my way of dealing with that pain
when I ***** about what I’m out to amount

I released this drama , Much love to you mama
for making me live this life , Tossed my mood like dice
Hoped for the best number, This zone is becoming ****ing dumber
As things changed , they call me the one who went deranged

But I don’t really give a **** , Cause here in 207 I’m stuck
Reppin’ my place that built me up to this fate
I’ve got all the ambition , My tangibles fill this
Whoever put my vote with the goat , you understand what I wrote

Because I’m reppin my town , and now myself dropping this down
Call it self esteem , but I’m just living for games scene
Such a pretty picture , We taking swigs of liquor
We’re living like how this town shouldn’t ever miss , to many *****es to diss

There all so secluded and deluded , I’m about to lose it
because they can’t protect what they had to lay to rest
Ain’t nothing else ill , let your mind fill
Cause if you can’t listen to me now , You better blast till you kill

My only prophecy is pushing all I got in me
Taking down *****es and snitches , your the one to fix it
Stop pushing buttons , Your proclaims are gonna fund this
Welcome to my zone of being chalked out alone

Were everything you say could just be thrown to waste

I stuck tight to my views like paste , Couldn’t ever tear us apart
Because I ain’t go no heart , the ***** already took that part
You labeled me a crazy ,Was it cause of you maybe?

So turn my soul back to my real self , Burning good from the shelf
Unleash my raps as deep as I breath
Growing on my self living free , Not gonna bother with your greed
I walk by , and as hard as I try , I still hope you all die

Cause you made this mind effected , I may have let it
but I don’t give a **** about drama , I’m not here to taunt ya
Re look at where I come from , My raps move with a strum
Making the illest melody , Indeffientely

I’m not ever gonna back out , Tired of this social drout
I’m gonna break out the cage , Listen to me rave
Blame the blaze but it just calmed my craze
cause I’m laughing at one fact , it’s you don’t know me at that

So heres to exit , every word , I meant it
**** you cunts , I don’t give two ****s
but this life right now sucks , This isn’t what I should be
Call me a wanna be G , I’m just being me

my opinion i think you good but could get better if you put more rhymes in cz i think it would sound better my opinion well haha thats what i do

Still not done reading the whole thng, but I like it so far bro x)

Song Title : A nobody's ambition

Played out like a game , who the **** is to blame
I use my blaze to not only calm my craze
but to defeat every problem , cause I truly got em
I’m asking to stop them , cause your making me plot em

I don’t wanna live in this area , I knew it wasn’t fair to ya
No longer gonna live with denial , Making my emotional venom vile
Snap back , and watch what I leave on this track
I’m tired of being pushed higher because of desire

You caused my infection to my affection
Straight up lyrical perfection , whos the one guessing
My attitude coming harder then a wesson , I made it my protection
To the pen I dedicate each and every sin , how much does it take to win

Cause this is my mission to fulfill my ambition
Tied down to society because my rep couldn’t guide me
Cause its all fake , It struct my temper rate
It built all this hate , Shake up my act , watch what I make

Call this the standard , following what I love , you a fan of her?
I know one thing , to the last word I sing
Only here to reveal my self , Burning down points from the shelf
Heres one , I’m heart stung when its said and done

Over rated hypes made this mind ill
I’ll make yours fill , Will take a barrel to kill
Cause I’ll never let go , Like I remember the ***
They called me crazy , was it cause of her maybe?

It’s all thats on my head , It’s got my lively hood bleeding red
I can’t be happy , will **** just get past me
I’m tired of you trying to attack me
But this ain’t the last of me

I’m using revenge to completely avenge
Bringing the evil soul till your ***** asses fold
Call me cold but your judgements are just old
They’ve driven me to a mind state where I feel all is at stake

This is my life , All but right
Dropping down my esteem to the mic
I was murdered inside , But now I got my own bride
Dedicated to lyrics , Its my spirt and I know you hear it


So I hope you ****s fear it , cause I’m so real
to how I truly feel , **** everyone in my path
Feel the revenge filled wrath , Coming with 1 point to prove
So bump this **** and let your head move , and tell me , what do we got to lose.

Song Title : Mind-State


A growing Alumni of MDI , dropping down emotions I vibe
They said I just rhyme , Your a disgrace to mention in this line
but I’ll give you that , you let me release every fact
Call me a revenge addict , I’m the first to rap at it

Come to see , What fate has given me
It’s called chance and it’s writing its own plan
We came from homegrown , Raised this **** on my own
Hear my tone as I push every thing to the bone

I’m living to the fullest , The wrong proclaims tried to pull this
But you’ll never take my pride , I’ll always burn eternal inside
We can all teach peace , if we could just relax with these peeps
It’s all the same from a different person, we all don’t know what we earning

It’s why I’m burning , to open my book to how I look
See and take down whoever tried to conquer my crown
this is my tale , to let go , let it exhale
I’m just letting it happen , I thank that to rapping

Cause it grabbed me like a snare , What do I dare
to make this fair , My rebuttle to my bustin bubble
I’m making enjoyment out of my struggle
None of you can smash and I’m about to unleash last

Everyone plays this **** as a joke , I’m my only counted vote
So just give up , I’m the first mother ****er to live up
Not gonna allow my self to hurt from jozette
The ***** left me on set and now I can regret

thats what makes society a game , is cause even know we all have a different name
We all do the same things of a human , People’s rep is blooming
I’m living vivid because all I can do is spit it
I’m my only critic , no one else can judge

Or even make me budge , cause I’m doing this ****
You know now to admit , That I ain’t no lying trick
If you don’t believe me , You better to get me
cause this annoying punk attitude is seriously your own altitude

Oh how high you can push this level , Call me the works of the devil
Cause I’m out for redemption , Grasp my intention
As pac said , I ain’t a killa but don’t push me
Revenge is like the sweetest joy next to *****

I lived by that moto , Who do I got yo?
Is there anyone I can trust , what I’m doing everyday is a must
because people are the same , it drives me insane
I moved life to fast lane , and now I’ve made it came

Unlike you nasty ***** , You’ll stick make this mind sick
But I’m living on my own honor , I’m glad I don’t got her
Cause I’m still the independent to offend it
cause I ain’t backing out of rapping

and In order , you put everything to the border
lay everything out , show these *****es what we’re about
I’m done trying to show the rules , Pitty for the fools
Soon talk old dylan , Cause his dreams are filling.

Song Title : Karma


One day the one who has lied through the teeth , will feel what I breath
Took my trust and you turned my heart to rust
One day strikes karma , and on this day
I knew I had it made my way , cause I was the first mother to say

That no one is your friend , cause when it comes to the end
They don’t give a **** about us , Just my luck
I pleaded , but I could never beat it
cause thin and through , a real friend stay true

Not one gave me that respect , now reflect
and catch on to what I’m sending in this song
Relate to understand my fate
I wanna teach every morale , from a mans perspective

This is my elective , so check it
Don’t allow yourself to much , cause we all get stuck
Keep your self at a low profile , other then that the drama will pile
I did it , and now look at what I have to admit

Stupid **** , but it’s all so damn right
Now you understand why I fight
I’m not the attacker , I’m just going on the backstabber
Cam king your nothing , No longer am I trusting

You left this **** at table , now I’ve produced a morale label
Watch how you diss , cause you might just miss
Play me for a ***** , Come to 78 , I’ll show you the woosie
My former sadness has pushed all but madness

To the other ones who face a hard place to take
You got show them who you truly are , I was played out way to far
and now thats why I get treated badly , It’s true sadly
But now they can’t play me to high , Cause I’m so already so far past by

It’s all gonna come back , listen to every word I rap
Because this a lesson , It’s a line I’m investing
Take my words as a note , Revenge filled I wrote
We all feel it , I’m a cinematic , watch me reel it.



never again will I allow chance to grant
It took me over , made my shoulder colder
Now when I come around the bend , I’m coming with mean intent
Cause you threw out all I knew , Now I’m isolated with the few

Cam you better understand I got a plan
Laugh at me , but your **** suck *** will see
That you don’t stab one brother , In one shape of another
and now thats all I can fight , I ****ed that ***** right


Everyday of writing about your fake asses , Karma is on its way at it
you can play this for a fool , but I’m already so cruel
Your both 2 little cunts , Pulled the ****ed stunts
You can just **** off , as I drop my realism like a rock.

Heres my last point , stiffen up every ****ing joint
Become tense and see what you costed at your own expense
You’ve engaged a menace completely deranged
So just wait , stop and ask , how much of this **** do I gotta take

Damn your gonna go far lol,
All these lyrics are just beast I wanna hear em lol

Thank you man , I highly appreciate the comment and time to read these. I know it's alot to read sometimes

Awh haha your welcome
And yeah, sometimes it's a lot but I enjoy reading the lyrics.
It's like trying to figure out what it means and I like the way you put everything together in each of em.

Haha again, your welcome x)

Song Title : Relationships


Listen to this instrumental Helps haha - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WloBl...eature=related

When you push to make it work , It causes it deeper hurt
You’ve let it become your life , Always questioning your might
Deep inside , You wanna make it right
But at other times , it’s whatever

You know you can do better , know one day there’s clearer weather
Soon amount more then ever , If they took all you’ve ever had
Just hold up your back , don’t ever slack
To see it all wrong , You’ve honestly just gotta stay strong

You’ve got to express , If you want it work
You truly got to invest , as a team
but to most , thats a dream , that makes it more then it seems
Become tight , treat the situations pelite

But this is just a hint , You’ll still burn like flint
hard to light yourself to excite
Just be yourself , Do it for your best health
Don’t let inner thoughts produce the wrong plots

You’ve gotta remain true , run fast to the blue
It’s the most honest clue , The *****es make it rough
Not expressing about the right stuff , We question love
Don’t we all just wanna be happy , Study our anatomy

You could give so much , Gives two to shits to ****
You just want that one person , They keep your desire burning
Everyday you’re learning , You ain’t the only one to live it
I’ve adapted with it , Things always change , I’m still here to spit it

Because I’m letting out what one girl made me about
She pushed all I’ve dedicated , Even if I hated
I still appreciate , cause you’ve opened my fate
To a future stronger mind state , Everyone else

Who just heard how I felt , Relate to what we’ve all dealt
It’s why your reading this , Cause you maybe give two shits
I’m on your level , Relationships pushed my rebel
Well now I’m on your side , Put the others behind

They left you , and you , and you
But thats just what people do
You just gotta move to the next step , Reflect on what the last left
You’re the only one to invest , Cause the other’s could just rip your chest

But don’t be afraid , You’ve just gotta get this made
After they **** you , **** it , get laid.
But until then , Don’t sit on bench
Stand up , Yourself to only trust , Doing whats must

So heres my sum of it , I’m not done of it
Whos next to realize , I wanna stare deep in your eyes
I’ll give you everything you want , I just wanna make you smile
I’m at your hearts dial , I’m never of vile.

Song title : Life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFoVZTU1vfk - Suggested to listen to with it


It’s brings us our hardest task , thats the fact
We just gotta face what life makes
The ambition of the game is at new stakes
Friends don’t give a f*** , It’s why they suck

Cause I'm all I gotta have now , Cause truth hit me in the face with a pow
It blew me off my feet , now I’m reviving myself through the beat
Retaliation is my own salvation , it’s like happiness is waiting
Because of right now , I’m feeling so down

But thats why it isn’t fair , is because when it’s all there
They can take all you have , Like this was a blast
and now I laugh , because I recognize that
Smoke , make a plan and now this life I can stand

Never gonna be a quitter , Even if my body is full of pure bitter
I will take it all and then make your proclaims fall
this is the realest trying to make you feel this
No one can understand a word I bust


It’s like I’m voiceless , but this is to only invest
on everyone who played me for a fake , Isn’t it great
You provided my esteem , you pushed my dream
So bring every acclaim , cause your my happiness to blame

One girl and she still won’t leave my mind , But thats something I’ll learn in time
They come , they go , there just the same damn ***
Something I truly gotta know , Suck my d***
or hit the do’ , cause thats the way it gotta be

From the way she treated me , I’m just gonna f*** them
Nice a place and when , life’s bringing what It meant to send
I’m as crazy as ever , Times rough as leather
I’ve grown rugged , She was the one to erupt it

But I’m gonna stay on , Head holding strong
Dicing the game up like ching ching chong
Because it’s the love that won’t leave me
and you better believe me , and watch how it treats me

Because this is my life , and I’m living it great despite
You put my presence in the light , and now I’m making a stand
Dropping what I can , Don’t let yourself look by
I’m doing this till I die , cause I was the first mother F***er to try

The most solo to make revenge move slow mo
It’ll get you in the end , f*** most who called me a friend
Cause it didn’t even matter , Thats what made it sadder
is they thought in there own head , No matter what was said

They didn’t have the respect to let brother hood effect
Did it for them selves , and thats something I’ll rip from the shelves
Cause its a everyday thing to make my emotions sing
Cause I’m showing what I love , Your opinion is less then two f***s

As sad as this all sounded , My depression made me drown it
Just live , no matter who you’re with , Planning out every like a script
Because I’m 1 level ahead , Left your homie internally dead
Now the beast is awakening , These points are gonna get your f***ingbody shaking.

Song title : Morale Activist


Witness a menace , making respect comprehensive
Coming with rough poetry , Ain’t dope free
Cause I’m living on drive , More ever alive
I’m gonna teach the one thing I preach

I got your mind Kinesthetic , Just let it
Assess about who can be the best
Do I got the melody , to do my promised Fidelity
Harmony chose you instead of me

But thats what this is all about , I’m on a lyrical rout
to show them why I’m out , to make some change
Cause ain’t nothing staying the same , F*** what the blind rave
Everyone said this ain’t enough to make the game come up

Who’s to say I care , I’m pushing everything that I fare
From the shack , I questioned who really had my back
I needed the support , problems became of a new sort
Smoking green didn’t make me miss the scene

Writing for the lust , Bustin’ for the love
Give me a beat and I’ll represent everyone true to the street
Live by morale lines , isolate yourself from different kinds
Catch those rhymes , I’ve been living hard times

But ain’t *****ing , My standards are flipping
Everything changed so fast , I put to much to the rack
I still can only think about how they stabbed back
I bet it all in , and that was deepest committed sin

Still everyday I rap about what should be the right way
It’s got myself going on a craze , This is the white boys phase
Still in a paranormal state , where everyone laugh’s at your fate
Homies and my girl were so close , I wanted to grow old

Then the world turned so cold , I’ll always know when
what could have been , but it happened
and thats why you got me rapping
it’s my only escape when your killing the heart rate


But still it’s all good , I just smile at what could
They said I’m destined for some investing
It’s just myself I’m reppin , No one gets
what I’m trying to up-hence , Ego so tense

They literally just called me names , It fueled my vains
because they had no reason , All for their own being
And thats teaches you , is I stayed true
Don’t play people for what they are , but who they are

Cause we all have our positives , Society to spot it
One morale to stay out of my business , Cause this morale is inflicted
I’m the one to spit it , No one left to trick it
cause I’ve already lost to much , F*** everyone of you last c****

So people ask my message , Here’s how I set it
teach people like your same kind , they cross the line
Break them down , make there day become a frown
Cause when your tolerance reaches zero , I’m your lyrical hero

Song title : Violent

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=91DWdPdGNrs - Suggest to listen to this with

Never wanted to be so violent , Always mentally silent
But they pushed me like an angry tyrant , Life is firing
It’s hitting me in the face , pushing my own sakes
No one can humble what it takes , what it makes to be great

They come to me , Say you’re an idiot you don’t see
and I just laugh , smile and think who’s really denial
I’ve already walked my life mile , Call me mountain high
Thats when I walk by , I give that mean eye

Chorus

Because I’m just fed with what it has left
Tried to be the rest and do it for my best
One person to regret , I was different after we met
But J.O.Y is here to do what he lives by till he die.

Some call it revenge , I’m just making truths avenge
Don’t let it mislead , I’ll break it down like a b c d
I’m good at soul , but you *****es are turning me cold
I don’t give a **** if my **** gets sold , I’m doing this till I fold.

chorus

It’s my life long dedication , Life’s ways are invading
But I’m taking , making this **** progress
More or less , tiny bit left from what you caused to infect
But I cant complain , Even if times get strange

Because thats all I have , Stab my back
and I’ll stab your back , Once remorse
to life’s course , My time worth to afford
Cause I’m send another elective , once again reflect it

Tell me , when you do your **** , Do you want to do it for fame
Or because you love your game , I did it cause I was made
So when you come with an insult , It feeds me like a deranged cult
Gotta a plan , to make you understand who the **** I am.

Song Title : Infliction


When will the struggle stop , My esteem fell like a rock
I wasn’t even me , Who was I to be
Couldn’t be nice , couldn’t do what was right or wrong
I just did what was best to keep myself strong

A Suicidal thought was something I truly first got
It burned my soul , Sometimes cold
Others burning heat , This is D.joy’s biggest feet
I lost all I have , Now its time to get it back

And don’t ever let it go , Release my pressure through the flow
The girl , I Miss you everyday , but nothing I can say
Driven the engine of a mad man , Broke my ****ing hand
over you and cam , This is my own damage to stand

It’s a caption picture , It made me move quicker
I changed my whole life style , the past were months wild
I looked into her eyes like my own child , it drew me to a new beginning
From our past I’m sinning , I regret it all and it makes me bash my head to a wall

Like there is no answer , I can’t stand her
She put me where I am today , Still thinking about you everyday
Now I’m only sad because of my self , Burned down my own health
Looks like I need a check up , Who’s still standing left up

Is there anything or anyone to make this case done
I wanna make it over this drudge , Feels like my body is at a grudge
like it’s a mental game , such a ****ing shame
But I’m my only self to blame , cause I’m all alone

No one to call on the phone , to drop my stress
Thats why these raps are to invest , because I gotta throw it out
Not my time to ***** and pout , Voice in my head so loud
It’s letting me know to keep this slow , I’ve just gotta do what I gotta do

Stay true and know I’m here cause of you
Haters at one point were my case to something of this joint
But I’m here to admit , so called stupid ****
It’s my depression , understand how it’s effecting


At points I couldn’t even eat , what the **** , chill and stay a seat
That was my number one rule , Cause even when I get cruel and treat you like a fool
It’s me getting through when the rain pours , The real answers are about to open door
Even when its as bad as it can get , Listen to what I bet

I’ll make it though this storm , You’ll never make completely worn
and thats to all of you , hear my inflicted clue
Played out as a runner , now a lyrical gunner
Squeeze the trigger , and now my happiness just got a little bigger.

Song Title : Who I be

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xHrqTdJEEUs , listen and read

Some didn’t know why they had to loath
Judge me by my clothes , Judge me by what inspires
Don’t be jealous of higher desires , my anger spread like fires
It can cause one other to ***** to another

Built my personality rugged , Some love it
Others say **** it , Call me the one abduct it
Laying down my feelings , My dreams aren’t stealing
there only out to help , Small to popular like a welp

They treat me like a demon from hell , like I was meant to be stuck in the cell
Like I was some fail , well you’ve led me to a better trail
Let me answers exhale , Use the suckers to create every spit mother ****ers
You’re my drive to do what I vibe , This is my life

I’m good because I’m doing all I could
Writing hard in the book , Not be played for a crook
I’m just living for me , showing these ****s who I be
Using my own power to steal your greed

At times mellow to a cold planet , I really can’t stand it
I guess I’m just not a fan of it , I’m gonna unleash
and preach how the **** to teach , to make a lesson
Of what people are effecting , got me and the crew wrecking

People point and mimic “I bet hes gonna light a joint”
I’ll tell you what the **** I’m gonna light , Some quick advice
Don’t play for to nice , I already tried twice
and now my heart’s locked in the vice

Soon to break lose , cause I gotta wise move
Trick you all and never will myself fall
Take the broken pieces to feed this
For all of you who don’t know me , please show me

Why am I so bad , Taking life laid back
Filling out my plan to become a good man
Rule my own land , and if not a fan
Just do **** yourself , leave yourself to help

Cause I’ve already tried enough , My only friend is to bust
Even if this heart turns to rust , This ***** is the only one to give a ****
Cause out of love I’m doing what I must , Writing down what drives me to here
Failure is my only fear , Seems like life’s on rough steer

Turning me in a crazy direction , My soul ain’t resting
One true thing I’m betting , is through this sorrow
I’ll make it tomorrow , live another day
My troubles made me this way , so I guess thats who I am
Try to understand you’ve my heart on a ban

This is my passion order , Even if I let torture
I’m never gonna stumble , Stay atop this struggle
Stompin’ down how you feel in rubble
Be the *****iest critic but tell me how you could spit it

I’m here to admit it , maybe white
but I’m doing what I like , It’s a mind fight
Writing to do every word right , Because I’m just being real
to how this life makes me feel ,and I’m asking the future to spin the wheel.

Anyone critiques? I'll be your bestttt frannn

Song title : Physical

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n03yT9A2MRg - Listen and readdddd.


Question I won’t push it to physical , call my rhymes critical
Cause I’ll be here waiting , 78 mill road ain’t no debating
Not trying be a bad *** ,I’m just making you back that
Diss on the foes and shut down the hoes

Give a **** about yourself, it’s your only wealth
because every will you were to fulfill
The courage and bravery to savor me
Call me a ***** , see how long you can push me

Then with a blink , Truths become distinct
Clearer then ever when I bring the rough weather
What a paradox to see it flipped like stocks
To some this don’t make sense , when I explode see your own expense

Making myself prideful for **** so crimeful
Time is burning , Soon to make you learning
I’m the teacher to be the honesty preacher
To many hide behind the mask , they think I’m just a tool

Play me for a fool , and it’ll hit you even harder
If only you’d been a little smarter , if only you could see what you’re making me be
I’m gonna do so awful , Call me tauntful
But i’m just retaliating of what I’m placing

I’ll do it just prove my only case , It’s my life to race
Only so long can they doubt me , Making my evil come out of me
It’s a awoken to what you ***** are provoking
One day when your choking , Hear my voice in the back ground

say look what I found , and Book what I put down
Your physical tempts feed this , You wouldn’t wanna meet this
Peaceful till disturbed , Truths so cold it’s absurb
Your judges are rookie , Crookie like a ***** who takes the whoopie

You mother ****ers can suck the biggest **** , Come out of no where “Click”
and everyones gonna realize I did it , it’s why I spit it
cause I want all of you to watch , walk around with a haunch
I’m around the bend and about to make sinful end

Tell me 2 wrongs don’t a make right , But I don’t give a **** despite
I wouldn’t care to go out of the way to be fair , these mother ****ers lift my hair
My angry is a rare , but it’s myself and I , me and only thee
but I’m letting my self free , a hermit without a physical permit

Illegal danger coming from a stranger , What happened to respect
If only they’d let but it’s already set
Were on line , to get whats mine
1 of my kind is hard to find , and you better watch out who behind

Song title : So bad

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vvYoqo0BQ0Q - LISTEN and read. - Helps alot.

My heart is burning , My self I’m hurting
One day I’m gonna be gone , for so long
I’m gonna remain strong , even losing friends
is causing my amends to the ends

Love became my addiction , even with it fiction
I lay back and glisten , Hear the mood of a victim
Who can relate with em , Nights I tried so hard
Losing her was the worst part , it made to much of a mark

Even through knowing that everyone dissed my flowing
I’m still using through the games bruising , Myself I’m losing
It’s the deepest pain to what she’s choosing
It’s all thats ever on my mind , it’s why she’s my mentioned rhyme

Cause at one time , We were the best
something I stuck to my chest , I put my heart up to invest
Now I’m at a huge debt , it’s like I owe so much
It’s why I bust to hope one day I change my luck

Never again will I lay to the line , Depressed is all I led to find
Don’t ever let me touch a nine , cause when I wanna end it all
I’d allow myself to fall , And even with suicidal coming rough like a tidal
It’s my self to blame for denial , Sad bad it’s vile

But I’m pushing myself to fullest , I became the bull of this
I’m running with a rage , Ain’t nothing I say fake
Cause it comes from the soul , Ran up my emotions like a toll
I pictured something bigger , I never once imagined this figure

I was so happy , then I realized everything got past me
One day I’m gonna blast me , that’ll be the last of me
Won’t have to hear my **** , I miss you *****
You turned what I had as a rich and then you let it inflict

I became so attached , what a true fact
The past is something I lack , cause I live in the present
I guess it can effect this , You’re hearing the rest of this
I fear my physical form , worn out and torn

Through this pain myself to blame , I’m sorry for it all
I wish I could rewind , go back to when she was mine
I was living , now everyday I’m *****ing
I had these terrible thoughts of evil plots

Memories were to eat me alive , will they be glad when I die
I will have done so hard to try , tried to stay straight
“Move on its to late” But your face took my whole writing place
Cause I pushed all at stakes , My crazy is what this makes

Now I’m off to escape , it’ll be way to late
I slipped up and now cleaned my plate
Soon to refresh , burning my current flesh for the best
I hope you understand why I went colder , when this is all over.

Very good bro, read my pm.