I am a **** Up.

You ever have one of those moments where you step outside of yourself, realize what you are doing, where you are heading, and that its not the place you've deluded yourself into thinking you'll be? Justifying the stupid **** with some mystical asstalk about how it will all work out in the end because you have the right intentions and you've got the potential, when in reality your just a ****tard who has the potential to do it all but the motivation to do nothing. The saddest part is, half the time I'll have these moments, but my motivation is so low I'm not even motivated to change it. But **** it.

It seems to me I just had a epiphany
Where reality is suddenly hittin me
Just been stupidly try to be living free
And finally I see that I've got to be shittin me

But how can I be shittin me when I give none?
And how can I be fixing me when I live dumb?
Now I've got to start quitting the illusion
And maybe start fitting in a new life for the old one


Cus I need to get my **** together like high fiber
Light a fire under my *** like I'm peter piper
And use everything at my disposal like McGyver
Peter pan fans understand you have to believe to fly higher

And here's a word to all of those who are realizing the same
Don't sit there and think that your not the one to blame
Making all these excuses for why you are in pain
Cus to see the rainbow you have to go through the rain

But see, just know that I don't blame you
Cus till now, I was the same you

I've been scared of water like the wicked witch of the west
And I've been thinking that I can quickly get rich and be the best
But now the truth is sinking and swiftly put that **** to rest
And the new is beginning to put the rest of me to test

Cus every saint has a past and sinner a future too
And it ain't who you were but more the newer you
And if it isn't who you are, then do what is needed
Cus when the pain is just a scar, then you have succeeded.


Rough draft, some of its corny but other than that, feedback away.

I like it, im going through the same phase you sound like you've been through so i can relate to what your saying. Its a solid piece and i cant wait to see the fullt hing

Bro I love this piece. Simple yes, but very deep; and cuts to the core. It represents a feeling that I think everyone has in their life but the coolness about it is that most people are either afraid or embarrassed to acknowledge or talk about it. This piece has balls and you should complete it.