furious for years

I’ve been furious for years
Don’t know why I was so scared
Of losin’ what was already doomed
from inception
our love such a misconception
Hanging on by a thread for years

I lived I fear, and shed tears
Everytime you stayed
Too long
And did heinous things
To drive you away
But you kept on stayin
No matter how high the ante

Let the river flow,
Like water and the duck’s back now
It’s too late
To fight this tidal wave
That’s my hate and you, betrayed
From all the crazy **** I say
I can’t take it back
It’s too late
And that’s for the best
Cause it hurts
Like a bullet to the chest
Rippin through the Kevlar vest
Meant to protect against **** like this
But it ain’t equipped
For my words like bullets
Hollowed and piercing
I’m in this for fierceness
And survival
A gladiator not a lion,
pawin’ the feast
Claws out and ready to sink
In the weakest points
Warm flesh and all
Come close-ah
So tempting but I forget
I’m the predator
So I got let you die
OR cannibalize
What was once yours and mine
Your heart is mine
No one elses
Don’t you forget that
Despite this assassination
It was only a mission
Nothin’ personal
To you
You know I’ll always love you
No matter how many times
I try to kill you

- "Let the river flow,
Like water and the duck’s back now
It’s too late
To fight this tidal wave
That’s my hate and you, betrayed
From all the crazy **** I say
I can’t take it back
It’s too late" -

- "For my words like bullets
Hollowed and piercing
I’m in this for fierceness" -

Not bad bro I'm feelin it, those up there^ made it for me. I keep picturing mike tyson spitting this haha.
Props dude looks like you've been working hard, good for you.
You mind checking my piece out?

Which piece...I will check it out

I will never come
To understand
See eye to eye
With Ya
These ***********
Make no sense
to me
Can’t shake the sense
that be
Nothing near to me
IN heart nor mind
They thieves
In the night
Stealin’ Anything
From A line
To minute in the spot light
But The focus gets lost
In their minds
In their lines
That rhyme
But strive
For little ambition
Just a momentary assassination
As is that could do anythin’
More than sting
For a minute
Like a band-aid rippin’
But it don’t last
Just like they don’t
Errode
like sandstone
Never can shake the sense
They hate success
Talent
All the things
They don’t possess
Just petty
Seems so silly
To me now
But somehow
Can’t help myself
Gotta look
Gotta listen
To the sh1t that they spinnin’
The hate they be spewin’
The sounds of their tires screechin’
From the circles they runnin’
Around in
Self-congratulatin’
Almost hilarious ain’t it?

For all you non-New Yorkers (gee-dubs = GW bridge Lincoln = Lincoln Tunnel and Holland = Holland Tunnel...all of these lead to Manhattan...'Bridge and Tunnel' is the term Manhattanites use to disparage Jersey or other outer bourrough residents....as for Jersey girls...hottest chicks ever...until they open their mouth and say, "But I want to get maaaaaarrried." then it is like eeeeek!)

Beat: Big Pun - You Aint A Killer (instrumental)

Bridge and tunnel,
Here we come
Me and my girls
Gonna get cha

no one looks bettah
And can’t satisfy ya
The way we do
Straight up jersey, dude

Bridge and tunnel
No doubt
Here we come
Via the Gee-dub
Or Lincoln
Avoid the Holland
Either way,

They all going
To the city
The City Lights
Shine so bright
And Tonight
We’re gonna
do it right

Hit the city hard
Cuz we’re young
dance like lesbian
Not cause we’re sluts,
Though we dress the part
But we are Party girls

And don’t stop til the morning
Day Breakin’ Like an egg
And We’re runnin’ away
To the basement party
Forget the day
Cause Here in the city
ain’t no boundary

5am your still dancin’
Raise your glasses to us
The jersey girls
The Bridge and tunnels

from Friday til Sunday
It’s gonna be ok
The night of your life
For a few days
Or just tonight

Cuz we’re always shinning
So Bright
Even when the night’s died
in the daylight
Makeup gone, Stockings run
We ain’t done, til we gotcha
IN our arms
So come with us
Via Seacacus
Where you’ll see the garden
Of which they speak
I can be the eden that you seek
Fulfill all your needs
For the time being
Til it’s time to leave

cross the bridge
between you and me
I’m so sorry
to mislead
But what I need
Ain’t ever gonna Be
A city boy,
I need a jersey pretty boy
Gold chain and shaved chest
Can’t explain it
But it gets me wet
Like the Hudson
That’s under foot
as you crossin’
The Gee-dubs, Lincoln Or Holland

I don’t care which
Til next weekend
When we
Gonna live it up
Shine so bright
Always do it right
Me and my girls
Who like to Take the turn pike

That’s right …

Music: bubaseta – tu mondo instrumental
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=74JDtMLy2wM

My heart is A strange Fruit
I know you gonna tie the noose
But Still I choose To love you


Let my heart swing
From the branches
Free Fall before the snapping
And I landing On the ground
Broke By my affections
My Predilections
For you and the things you do
To me
I Guess I’m Masochist
Or a hopeless romantic

Either way it won’t matter Much
In the end I’m so f0cked
Done over and hung up
out to dry
Hanging on the laundry line
Let the wind Blow me away
this love is pain
Dampening Everything
Til I’m not fit wear
By anyone
To wet bear
I lost myself
the sun might absolve me still
I’ll take it Like a pill
To forget the strange fruit
Exotic and bitter
I was enticed
Til I took a bite
And the taste
Stung my lips
All puckerin’
A taste I’d thought to acquire
And now I know,
After I wasted my time on ya
That the orchard of trees
That I fell in love beneath
Was deceiving me
Crab apples
Ain’t apples trees
And I hate that taste of these
The way I hate myself
while skirt Came up over my knees
You assured me of everything
And now it’s too late
To change
I’m bearin a strange fruit these days


My heart is A strange Fruit
I know you gonna tie the noose
But Still I choose
To keep on love you

Wow...Love this! Nice...not related at all but something else I wrote...while on vacation haha...

I went to paradise
And my throat I want to slice
I don’t how the days splice
Together like a movie plays
Out the drama
On this little bahama
An island of dreams
So it seems
But it’ll split at the seams
When you go lookin’
For the seedy
Underbelly
That’s lyin’ and beguilin’
With the *****s and the drugs
This littal island
Is not as idyllic
As the brochure claims
It’s just the same
As the city
You fleein’
Can’t ever be free of
The insidious
Trade
IN vices
And other human Devices
Same here as elsewhere
I still want to kill this mother ****-ah
Neither here nor there
I don’t care where
It goes down
This beach is my OK corral
Now,

Let the clock strike noon
High noon fool
I pistol drawn and my back to you
Pace it off
One two,
Upto ten,
Turn back around again
And start firin’
You know
I’m a crack shot
Dead spot
On accurate
Sorry to take you down
But at least
It’s a beautiful place
To fade away
Face to face with your enemy

Can’t take back the days
We wasted away
In love and misery
Fighting Every day
to change one another
We stayed the same
Neither willing to change
For the other

We never budged
Growin’ the hate
Between us
Nothing left of the love
We once felt
An empty abyss
Spans the distance
grown betweenus
Your miles away
These days
I need a rocket ship
Just to see your face

Is it worth thte trip?
I can’t be certain.
It’s a lot to risk.
Letting you back in.
Cause I’m tired of hurtin’
One more bruise
And I’m gone
Subdermal hematoma
Blunt force trauma
To the heart
I’m a goner
Can’t shock me back
To a life that’s like a knife
Through the side
It makes me numb
It makes me bleed
I’m bleedin’
As I dream
**** you ain’t seein’

Don’t you see that
I want you
But don’t want to die for you
If you don’t want me to
And I’d take all the blows
For you
If I only knew
That your heart was true
But it’s hard to tell from afar
Like a star, that’s gone dark
Is it dead
Or just lost

Hard to tell
And
Can’t take back the days
We wasted away
In love and misery
Fighting Every day
to change one another
We stayed the same
Neither willing to change
For the other

Is it just light or
Is something still there?
Never can be sure.

Can’t take back the days
We wasted away
In love and misery
Fighting Every day
to change one another
We stayed the same
Neither willing to change
For the other








Does that mean we got no future?
I can’t accept that
But wonder if I have to
I love you
Enough to release you
From the binds that bound you
To me, I was yours and you were mine
I put in the time
But the more I spent, the less
Coming back in return’
I seemed to get
Like a Ponzi scheme
Gone belly up
All my dreams
Washed up
And my happiness forever gone
Among those who
You had me believin’
You were the girl of my dream and
I feel my pulse quickin-en
Like I’m hypertensive
A physical manifestation
Of the attraction
And now the rejection
Dejected, my Heart beat poundin
out the seconds
That pass by without you
It’s all sinkin’ in
Now


Can’t take back the days
We wasted away
In love and misery
Fighting Every day
to change one another
We stayed the same
Neither willing to change
For the other

I’ve been on Hiatus
This moment makes or break us
As it always did to us
This is what’s all the fuss
It’s all about us


Yeah we got it
Yeah got it good
Yeah we know we should
We,
We got it good

Right from the start
We had it all along
So hot and bothered
We were just young
And reckless
I’m on hiatus
I don’t wanna think
I just wanna to drink
To let it go away
I’ll spend the day
On the beach
Getting’ wasted away
Let my time idle away
Everything good goes away
Like love,a buzz, the sun

So it is, setting
What can I do
But fall in love with you
With us
You got us too
So hot and bothered
But I’M NOT
Butherin’ no more
With us
I’m on hiatus
I’ll take this vacation
And where I’m going
You ain’t
And,
That is what makes it
Relax and escape it
Again,
you were never meant for him
So, Do it while you can

I’ve got a shadow heart
It knows you just enough
keep an arms length distance
From the promises we made

I can’t accept your gifts
Of love and tenderness

Time It winds down
The clock has struck the hour
I can’t hear the bells ?
I don’t hear a sound

Do you feel it?
The shadows creep in
My heart’s beatin’ fast
Cuz I’m leavin’

I’ve got a shadow heart
I told you from the start.