Dear Dad, im talking to the stars as i could do with you here, instead you chose the bottle to deal with your fear.

Well you've left your only kid who now is also scared will i do a you and drink myself dead? Leave my little boy with his psyhco mum who i'd ****ing set on fire if she didnt have my son.

Oh youve got a granddaughter too who's as gorgeous as can be. If you hadnt giving up youd be able to ****ing see..... me little Ella and gorgeous Jacqui.

Listen dad i know its not all your fault the devil was chasing you and you got caught.

I miss the way we used to laugh and the way we used to talk, i miss coming to yours as a safehouse for my thoughts.

I forgive you and know ill see you in the end just right now i could do with my best friend.