I am at the end
It seems to be done
No more will to bend
There is no more fun

Everything is bothersome
Joy bleeds into misery
Can't even enjoy my aged rum
It lost its mystery

I am alone with my thoughts
Sad ideas and broken dreams
I feel vile as my body rots
As life's strands are ripped at the seams

There will come a time when I heal
Though tired with a full head and anger
Right now it won't matter the way i feel
These feels will be forgotten like a stranger

Normality seems so far away
Stuck trying to move on with attrition
A true journey will be made to that day
But only if I commit to an important decision