help please: the hills season1 ep9

season : 1
epsiode : 109

this is the episode where heidi and jordan break up , and there is a song before jordan comes over and heidi is on her cell phone talking to her mom in her room . it goes something like this :

praying for a rainy day
to stay in bed inside
... (?) looking for a way to dedicate your life .
i cant understand the rest because heidi`s talking .

heeeelpppp please !
would be muchhh appreciated

Vaughan Penn - Struggle