yesterday you showed me your true self.. i couldnt believe it, i was hurt beyond belief.
i wanted so much to talk to someone, to give me advice, to help me.
i didnt mean for this to happen, i didnt want to put you in this position.
forgive me
but the opportunity was there for me to talk about it, and i took it... please dont hate me.
i did so much for you, even changed myself..
i stopped smoking cigarettes, for you, and only you.
i tried my best to learn spanish for you.
i tried my best to take care of you and your family.
i gave you many compliments, suprises and support..
you got me to socialize with other people, you made me happy, gave me something to smile for.
....i just tried my best for you, but it wasnt enough for you.
i wanted so much for you to be there for me as a friend, to support me like i supported you.
i lost close family members.. i've lost my best friend and needed your support...
but i was denied, left abondoned, and to suffer through out the days.
ive done everything a man should do for a women.
everything i did was because i thought i was a man...a friend...
but in return i was left hurting, i was left scared, and left with a empty place where
my heart used to be.
you told me... "i thought you were a man", you made me question myself...
am i really a bad person?
am i really a man?
am i really a true gentleman?
you said i confused you, im telling you now.
i never once thought of a sexual relationship, never thought of being married.
i just wanted a true friend, someone to talk to,
someone to grow old with, and have by my side and hold me through thick and thin.
but you told me to my face, you told me from your heart... that you dont want my friendship and
you dont care about me. i thought it was just a bad nightmare, but it wasnt.
after all this... i still care for you..still want to be your friend... why? i dont know.
i've thought this through and ...i cant do it, i really cant do it, you left in ruins, shattered and torn.
i really cant explain how i feel, how much it hurts...maybe theres no explaination for this feeling.
but im here for you... i've always been there for you, you just didnt see it that way.
im letting you know now at this very moment,
i still have faith in you...
i have faith that you will change your ways and become a better person.
i have faith that you will learn not to decieve anyone.
i have faith that you will learn to speak the truth, even if it leads to pain.
i have faith that you will stay with your husband and be together in happiness for the
rest of your life.
i have faith that you will restore your honor, and respect as a true woman.
i lost all hope,hope abandoned me..but i have faith, please dont make me question my faith...its all i have left