ESP- Negatif/Hayko Cepkin

Like usual, I understand just enough to think these lyrics are interesting, but I'm not sure I'm understanding it correctly. For example "Günahlarla kendini buldun sen"- I wonder if this means "with sins, you found yourself" or "you found sins in yourself" or something totally different. ? Please help.

Sayfalarca yenilendim eskittim
Kendimi bazen
Yananlarla yenilendim
Her gülüşünle
Bazen bazen
Günahlarla kendini buldun sen
Dualarla temizlersin artık
Yalanlarla mabedin namahrem
İhtiyacın yok kimseye
Vaatlerle zehirlendim,mestettim
Kendimi bazen
Derinlerse kemirgendir ,binbir
Gece elalem matem
Çalar gider düşünmez ardını
Kimseler duymaz tarihi dolmadan
İpimizi hergün çekenlerle yaşarsın
İhtiyacın var
Bir nefes sıhhat bağırsan kendi
Kendini doğursan
İhtiyacın var ihtiyacın varken
Savaşlar geçer yanımdan İhtiyacım varken
Günahlar akarken kanımdan İhtiyacım varken
Savaşlar geçer yanımdan İhtiyacım varken
Kalanlar bıkar adımdan İhtiyacım varken

I forgot one other request to ask...I've been searching for two songs lyrics for a long time, but I can't find them. Somehow Milena was able to get lyrics for Zehirli Sarmaşık when I couldn't find them. So maybe someone can help me find lyrics for these two songs:

Lityum- Hayal (The chorus says "Kendimi toplayıp gelebilsem elini tutup söyleyebilsem gel gidelim cok uzaklara yüzüne bakıp seyredebillsem" (I think) but even when I search with these lyrics, I can't find the rest of this song)

Selçuk Sami Cingi- Aşk

Many thanks for any help.

I tried to do that with Aşk- listen and write what I heard...I was mostly accurate but I also ended up with nonsense like "Düşlerim ne gideyersin" for "Düşlerimdeki değersin". I had a strong feeling that was not real Turkish.

Originally Posted by Milena

This song is growing on me more and more.

I'm glad to hear it. Again, I really love Hayko's vocals in this. He sounds great.

Thank you for the translation. In Turkish, is it a little difficult to understand also? I like the lyrics (they remind me a little of the Sahip album's theme), but they seem very ambiguous/hard to understand whom/what he is speaking about/to. I can't tell if it's meant to speak to a lover, or some unknown person (some Mehmet ağa )
Or for example: Günahlarla kendini buldun sen // You found yourself with sins
Does this mean something like"you used sins to find yourself" (ie your behaviour was sinful) or "you found sins inside yourself" (you were looking in yourself and found you were not so pure)? My guess is that it's the first interpretation, because I would think 'you found sins inside yourself' would be 'Günahlarla kendinde buldun sen' but I'm not sure.

Originally Posted by Milena

Exactly. It's difficult to understand them even in Turkish. (I tried to translate this song before but I gave up coz of that.) For example I'm unsure about that line: Çalar gider düşünmez ardını. Who steals and goes away??

As for "You found yourself with sins" I think your first interpretation is correct. (You found sins inside yourself = Günahları kendinde buldun.)

I understand. Thank you for trying again though. Even if it is confusing, I appreciate it very much. The line you said 'Çalar gider düşünmez ardını' is one of many.