If im not writin songs
Im prolly writin checks
If i aint havin problems
Im probably havin sex
My life is a routine
Yet i dont know what comes next
They say L yo songs in my head how i get em out
I say listen all u can do is listen and the sound goes down
Even if the man was on crack
We would vote for the man just cuz he black
Which proves african aint a race its a family
We stick together in times of need
But some of them *****s back stabbed me
And knee jabbed me tried to finish me
But u will never diminsh me
Im infinite the endless u stop now
Just a pow and a bow to the face
To the finish line and end ur entire race
My own family is two faced
They never saw the tears runnin down my cheeks
I didnt show em cuz i felt so weak
I felt like this every week
They say hey ur blessed it feels like a curse
Cuz the bad gets worse worse and worse
It gets worse when i realize im worthless
Emotions try and sort em out share em with u
Some feelins spilt i know ur true colors
So i guess we red blue and green brothers
Started this rap wack as ****
And then went so deep in the sand i think im stuck
Home sweet home im packin up and leavin
Where ever im sleepin im thinkin
About my past life and how im such a loser
Cuz i was winnin then lost it all in the future
Lost my moms dont want my dad
They dont think i sometimes feel sad
Brothers and sisters they still alive
But when i come around i see they change
When did we become so estranged
We need to acquaint before its to late
I never complained i took everything on my plate
But now im gettin closer and closer to death
So take ur plate of mess and send it back to the chef *****
Im so tired of livin
I should be selfish
Worried abut everybody elses wellness
Im so tired of the unfair
Prices of happiness
I dont have a purpose in this world
Cuz i was an accident
Yo im tired of these clown *****s
Big shoes and red noses
They tell me whats sup
Im like i suppose its the sky
Money cant buy u happiness then what can
Save my tear drops sweep em up in the dustpan
Try and beat the heat before i get a sun tan
Then i remember im a black man
The prices of happiness sky rocket
I spent the little change i had in my pocket
This happiness is generic not official
It dont last long its artificial
With the money from the pension
I buy happiness from wal mart its next to attention
I got so much baggage they checked me before flight
They couldnt find nothin cuz i got nothin to hide
Ive been goin every year the same place for my b day
All i can eat hometown buffet
Dont want no problems its detrimental
Trouble follows me or is it coincidental
Tommorow brangs promise
All i seen was lies
Yesterday we cried
Today the tears have dried
Mama whats for supper nothin why u actin suprised
Told u that i had ran out of supplies
Fend for ur self omnivore
I should just stuck to cleanin floors kids are more of a chore
But i love u to death hate u to life
Remember son happiness has no price
Im so tired of livin
I should be selfish
Worried abut everybody elses wellness
Im so tired of the unfair
Prices of happiness
I dont have a purpose in this world
Cuz i was an accident