“Slippen”


(I was Slippen)
Come listen to my realest feelings and see my hazy visions
got me checking myself seems I need to change position
Though I was dealt a rough hand, I stayed on a mission
To be the strongest damn person and minimize the *****ing
But seven years later, I’m still stunned and wishing
That I could take it all back cause oh my God, I miss him
If I could trade in his shoes, you know I’d have to flip them
Cause all be damned he’d be me and just straight slippen
(I was Slippen)
I met a woman, and fell in love so quick
It damn near gave me chills, like I was getting sick
She wasn’t my first pick, but she wasn’t the last
To be quite honest with you, I just wanted some ***
But I got attached, we got smashed , and it happened so fast
I fell for a girl, before knowing her past
So I’m sitten here thinking, ****, I slipped and i crashed
Into one big pile of her family’s trash
(I was Slippen)
I had a friend named ****, he was a cool *** dude
He had a wife named ***** and a prescription too
With a few tattoo’s, he acted straight old school
Until the man played me out, to be the hugest fool
Man, they played their game, so ****ing good
They didn’t pay me nothing that they said they would
He saw my shoes untied and sent me fallin
Tricked my ***, and made me think I was ballin
(I was Slippen)


(My Thoughts)
“Back Then” & “Now”


Sometimes I find it hard to thank God for the air in my lungs
When I look at my life from the outside and see what I’ve become
A monster! ****, some call me a thug
It’s like The Hate U Gave me has been dying to blow up
I said I’ve grown up, in the past few years
Smiling at your face, but crying plastic tears
Of a clown, saying I was a man, but scared to throw down
My emotions simply like, a bullet shot with no sound
Held it in, like a prince scared to wear his crown
I got a tattoo, of a smile beside of a frown
If I had it to do again, it’d be the other way around
Because… **** fronting!
If it was like real life, tell me, now wouldn’t that be something?
I’m not saying I should cry more, that would make me a *****
No offense ladies, I didn’t mean it that way, sometimes it just slips
Anyway, because you’re a man, doesn’t mean, you cant show heart
Why not, draw your feelings out, instead of push them apart
If I understood things back then like, I seem to now
Imagine what I could learn just from looking at the clouds



Man that must sound crazy, How selfish can I be?
Finding it hard to thank God for the air that I breathe
I need to pray more, that’s why, some nights I just can’t sleep
My soul sits up wit me. My spirit needs uplifting
My body’s free, but my mind gets scared when it can not see
I used to think, well “that’s me”… but why?
Should I feel unsafe, without keeping that open eye?
I say I try but I know I don’t, I say I’ll try to change when I know I wont
Its hopeless, unless I get focused
The only other way is to play hocus pocus
The only way to grow, is to dig up and sow this
Seed called life, in my flesh and get noticed
By the right crowd, in the white clouds
God give me strength, so I can make your son proud