Quicksand

Quicksand

Lying in the shallow light
Waiting for the dark
To smother me in withered dreams
To crush my crippled heart

In the aftermath of all your rain
I got caught up in the flood
Now in the quicksand of survival
I am drowning in the mud

As the sweetest flower of spring
Is bound to bloom, but never last
We shall fall back into earth
Alone, an echo of the past

But I know you never meant to hurt me
I was just a helping hand
I was there and I was lost in you
And I was happy to pretend

I always knew that it was wrong
That it could feel exactly right
Though mostly I was flying blind
I was dazzled by your light

Like a moth that slowly flys
Into the centre of a flame
Though I knew that it would kill me
I went looking for the pain

Still I didn't ever think
That you could make me feel this way
Unaware you even have at all
In your own sweet, blissful way

I wish you knew it wasn't lust
That kept on drawing me to you
I wanted you most when we just sat and talked
And it hurts even more that that's true

If a thousand things were different
We could maybe have been real
But if I could edit anything
I'd only change the way you feel

And so I'm sorry that I love you
And I know you never could
I'm just another bad thing in your life
You're the only thing in mine that's good

You just got a little lost
I didn't ever want you to be found
I didn't realise that I was falling
Until the day I hit the ground

And when I fell for you
I fell head first and I fell hard
I only wish that I could say
It's just my forehead that got scarred

Though I'm not the slightest bitter
I know you only wanted truth
But when I tried to give that to you
I set something different loose

And I can't let on that this hurt exists
So it's chained inside my head
And when I try to go to sleep at night
It's the ghost beneath my bed

It's the path that i have chosen
And it's not the path that leads me home
It's left me stranded in the dark
Left me hopeless and alone

But I can still at least pretend
That I have never sold my soul
If I am travelling without one
You took it with my full consent

I will miss you like the nighttime
Longs silent for the sun
Except that I might wait a lifetime
Til another morning comes

So I'll try my best to fight it
To maybe be a different kind
But in this brutal losing battle
Im afraid my heart outranks my mind

So never hold my hand inside yours
Never softly, sweetly kiss me
Never rest your head upon me
Never tell me that you miss me

So that I can start pretending
That my heart is only history
I don't know what else I can do
Now i have to live without you

So I sit quietly and crumble
But I cannot explain why
Avert my eyes outwith your gaze
To try and hide the tears i cry

Move out the way as best I can
And watch you sharply pass me by
I don't know what else I can do
Now i have to live without you

Lying in the shallow light
Waiting for the dark
To smother me in withered dreams
To crush my crippled heart

In the aftermath of all your rain
I got caught up in the flood
Now in the quicksand of survival
I am drowning in the mud

I don't regret it

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