Self Destructive

A song I wrote about a hard drug addict and crippling drug addiction, its quite depressing but thats kinda how I wanted it to be

A walk to the park
Off to meet my man
Another day the same old plan
Watching all the happy people
Laughing families make me sick
Something I can never have
I wait till it gets dark
Thats when I get my hit
Slow injection to string me out
Make me numb
Lets me forget all this pain
Disappearing in the fade

Further down the spiral I slide
When will I hit the bottom?
Waiting to die

Wish this feeling could last forever
But I have to come round
Feeling weak now
Im to small for this crown
And it comes sliding down
Choking me now
Hard to remember the point
Where drugs overtook life
Mind and body
Broken beyond repair
Why should I try?
Why should I care?

Further down the spiral I slide
When will I hit the bottom?
Waiting to die

How did I let this begin?
Trapped on the outskirts of life
My bones hugged by skin
The pungent stench of death
Hanging heavy on my breath
Beyond the point of no return
Desease, decay
Come ****ing eat me
I will abuse my body
Untill you defeat me

Further down the spiral I slide
When will I hit the bottom?
Waiting to die